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i'm proud of myself today because i got up on time, went to therapy, went and worked in the library for several hours and THEN went to the gym. *tired*

my vote helped to elect Kevin Rudd Prime Minister, and he APOLOGISED.

i got up on time.
(how long have you been running for, Little Green Ant? i'd like to get back into running, i haven't been doing it regularly for about a year and a half now )

interesting, will have to check it out. thanks for sharing!

i went to work and i my job competently.

seems to me that it would have a lot to do with it (although i guess you could see it as a sort of circular explanation). from here: http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/bpd.html Jerold Kriesman and Hal Straus refer to BPD as "emotional hemophilia; [a borderline] lacks the clotting mechanism needed to...

that's great! i've sometimes found exercise to be really helpful with my urges/general mood management, too. well done!

half-dead with the tired. stupid and slow-brained.

good on you! that would've been tough. keep going!

i'm gonna drink some 'relaxing' tea to try to get sleepy enough to go to bed (it's a bit after midnight here.)

buzzy

exhausted but glad i did things today.

relieved, exhausted, sore, hungry.

scared/worried/anxious/frightened/tearful - i don't wanna go to the doctor this afternoon. what if they decide i'm not "Crazy" enough to be deserving of health and i can't get any support for seeing my psychologist? i won't be able to afford it! :s :/

that sounds like a good idea!

anxious!! not physically jittery, just very mentally icky.

i made dinner for me and S.

i slept away the evening of New Year's (because it was really really hot and i was exhausted) and apart from having to explain to everyone who asked "So, what did you do for New Year's?!", it was grrreat. i also had the best Christmas/family gatherings in about 10 years (which isn't to say that ther...

tired, gorramit.

i've recently taken to asking my paranoid questions (do you think i'm stupid? are you mad at me? do you think so and so thinks i'm an idiot?) out loud, to a good friend, someone whose judgement i trust. 1) it makes me listen to myself, and often just saying it out loud helps me realise i'm being par...

frustrated and guilty
gonna keep distracting myself until i get tired enough to go back to bed and, hopefully, sleep.