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Ty everyone. I think I should be okay for now...but there is one issue I'm not too sure about. Do I tell my friends that they're hurting me? or should I just go with this new 'method' of having fun and not tell them? Also, forgot to mention this last time, but it seems that while they can talk about...

TY KathyG and DirtyMagicalAly For the past couple days I HAVE been feeling better, but this issue still l1ngers in the back of my mind, no matter what I do...I told my C about it, and she thinks i need to 'lighten up', and spend more time with my friends, even if they're doing something I don't prat...

I'm not sure if my family could be considered abusive (my brother used to hurt me a few years ago), but they were most defintely neglectful. When I was in elementary school from grades 3-6 (K-2 were spent happily overseas) I was the one of three Asians in the school. I was short, I didn't know anyth...

Congrats on not SI-ing for a month! A little advice from me. Right now, I haven't cut for 10 MONTHS. And it's been a mixture of good times and crappy times the whole way. You're not perfect, and no one should expect you to be perfect. I've been able to improve because 1) I got help from several peop...

Hello all~ It's been almost a year since I've been on this site, but I've never forgotten it; in fact, the only reason I quit is because my therapist though I might get depressed again by helping people. Originally, I was depressed, self-destructive and suicidal in the time period of 2003-2004; I ha...

my parents and I don't talk much anymore....things are pretty much back to where they used to be, except they sorta know when to leave me alone...

~SI free 4 days~

hmmmmm....fighting with the wall...lol. fun fun. Bad if the pillow explodes though. XD Good list though.

.....yeah, I SI'd again last week on Friday, I think. And I did it again Sunday (last week), so I've been SI free about... 6 days. Fun fun. Spent the holidays as a maid, basically.....God, Macaroni and cheese is the one thing we don't have leftovers of. Got a job taking care of my neighbor's cat but...

To Zebraseal, thanks so much, and to morganbellamy, let's just say...he got really, really violent. I've been SI free for about 23 days now, and I'm seeing a therapist every week. I've become pretty good at resisting the 'bad voices' in my head now....it happened this week Monday-Wednesday, but I wa...

Thanks Hannah. I really apprecitate the post. Now, I just need to get this all out: I SI to punish myself, I wish I was de@d, I wish God would let me die, I wish people could see the real me, I wish that I could be stronger, I wish I wasn't here, and I just feel really crappy right now...I feel so b...

Well, I was SI for about 10 days, which made me extremely happy, until I started to SI in class today; since I didn't have anything sharp on hand, I used my nails. A bit after that, I went to see my guidance couseler, who called my mum, who drove me home. I feel better now, but this morning I felt l...

The counsler at school told my parent's I was SI today. Gods, I was having anxiety attacks during my last class. I just finished talking to my 'parents'. They said they were hurt and mother was crying a little. She suggested I go to a shrink or something like that. I flatly told them I hat3d them an...

((gigantic huggle)) Ty. All my friends know about my SI, and they've all been suportive to me. X3 They're so awesome. How to get noticed? Um.........well, they're not home a lot.......or I'm busy with stuff....so I don't have many opportunities to see them or whatnot........ ty for the help. (SI FRE...

I was thinking of telling one of my teachers and getting some advice from them or whatnot. Thank God for youth meetings! Ty for the hint. (hug)

I've TRIED talking to my parents and saying how I feel but IT NEVER WORKS. The last two times I tried they said I was being stupid, unrealistic, childish, and trying to lay on the 'guilt trip', and I just went to my room and cried my eyes out till I could call a friend. They don't even know what kin...

((big huggle)) Jeesh, that must have been really nerve wracking. I hope everything turns out okay. You're very lucky to have parent's who want to try and help you and get you with a counsler.......

I'd like it if people would notice and try to HELP ME. But I'm so confused, I don't WANT my parent's to see, because I'm scared of them pretty much, and they're always busy with my younger brother, who is screaming and cursing his head off as I write this, and I just KNOW they would lock me up if th...

I agree with Hannah on this one, once you start it's like an addiction.....you have to try and remember who you are and what you want to do. I started SI about a week ago, and I'm still confused as to why I did it in the first place. Try talking to someone about it; when I talk to my friends I feel ...

thanks for the tip. I've told most of my friends, and they've been very helpful and supportive in trying to get me to not SI. But my mother just saw two left over scars and didn't say anything about it. >.<

I lost my grandfather when I was 4, and I lost one of the closest people to me when I was 7, so I'm really sorry. But I don't think your mum would want you to be unhappy so try and be happy for her sake, k? Hope things turn out okay. ((huggle))