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i'm worried that i won't get back into school. i'm worried that i will be stuck in this town and this life and never make something of myself or do anything meaningful with my life. i'm worried that the depression is back so bad again....i'm worried that it will never go away. i'm worried that i'm l...

i'm sad because i'm alone again instead of planning a wedding.

i'm happy because i'm getting over my pneumonia, and my friends are lovely, and tomorow we are going out.

grief -- i need to just aknowlege the fact that i'm grieving, and allowed to grieve, and that that's ok. i need to take some time out and finally deal with her death, and how i feel, and the fact that i miss her so much it aches. i've got to stop running away from this or it will sit inside me forev...

comments ok, pm * i am lying to my fiance about si'ing. i told him that i had a slip rather than telling him i'm back to it all the way. now he thinks i'm being really honest with him so he doesn't ask because he think's i'll tell him if i "slip" again. i feel like shit about it. i feel more decietf...

hi. cool thread! well, here's a dream i had a couple nights ago. i can't remember parts of it, but the parts i remember are very clear...just fragmented. i feel like it means something, but i have no idea what. i was with some sort of group...school group maybe...and we were outside a concentration ...

because my wonderful boyfriend called me and made me feel beautiful and special, and i thought about how much he would be hurt if i si'd.

betsy

hugs
watching "labyrinth"
listening to U2
getting kisses on the face from my kitty
holding someone's hand
cocoa with marshmallows in it
fireworks
conan obrien
wearing fabulous shoes to class

i 've been trying so hard to get better, and to do my coursework, and to be happy, but it just doesn't work. i feel like i'm completely hollow. i'm too empty to even be sad, and i just don't know what to do. i hate feeling like this. can anyone give me some idea of how to feel better? or at least ho...

hi, welcome back to bus. :) irl means in real life. it's just an abreviation. it probly would be a good idea to find some irl support, instead of just online - even though bus is great. even if you don't want your family to know, maybe you could find a therapist you could talk to? i hope you feel b...

having a friend keep an eye on me usually helps me not to drink. but if you feel like you really can't go, maybe you could come up with an excuse for your friends so you wouldn't hurt their feelings. you could say you're sick, or have a ton of work to do. i hope that helps a little, sorry you've go...

wow, what great ideas! here's some more *write perverse poems about your most straight-laced teacher *try to guess if anyone in the class is not wearing underwear *make up a secret code *tape your fingers of one hand together and then try to unstick them without using your untaped hand (note: this ...

hey, i just went to that link and it's great. thanks....and the bubble wrap really is addicting. hehe.

betsy

i can't cry for real anymore, sometimes it just hurts so much that even the tears want to hide. i'm just tired of this, so damn tired. i wish i could really have a place to cry.

betsy