bus

I can feel my depression getting worse as I'm weaning off my meds... and it scares me.

angry
upset
hurt

I'm so sad you left. Please come back.

lonely.
exhausted.
sad.

silenced.

empty
stupid for caring
exhausted

You used me.

upset.
sad.
angry.
stupid.

alone
sad
depressed
unproductive

I love you. And I know you're not going to leave N, but I really want to tell you that I love you anyway.
We're two months in, and I think if you let yourself admit it, you really care about me, too. But you won't.
I can't be the only one to risk being vulnerable.
I love you.

like i'm not expressing my feelings well, especially to J.

overwhelmed.
useless.
like i'm unintentionally playing games.

I wish you would divorce him and stay with me.

I don't like being lied to.

And I don't like finding out from someone else that you weren't being honest with me. I don't care if you want to be in a relationship with him, but if I ask you a direct question and you lie, expect me to be pissed off.

i don't have the energy

neglected, like an old toy.
disposable.

If you want to be with me, you have to want to be with me other than when I have something to give you/something you want. If you want to see me, I really want to see you. I miss you. I want you to miss me.

used.
upset.

I think I'm starting to fall for you... and I'm alright with that. I'm okay with this going really slowly, because I think it might actually go somewhere. I'm scared that you'll break up with me when you need to leave your husband. and I think we could really work long term if we didn't have this gi...

I'm really happy we're back together, but if you come over now and end things again, I'm not sure we'll ever be the same.

Please don't. I like you a lot.