bus

because the reason i want to hasn't even happened yet, it's just anxiety

irrationally scared
concerned about k, a student at northern.

unmotivated
out of control

I don't feel like an adulteress, even though I am in a relationship with a married woman.

anxious
frustrated
upset

I can't believe you called it an affair. That's so painful, I'm not sure I can handle it. I wish you would have noticed how much it upset me.

I know you think that I'm okay with this not being a serious relationship, but I'm falling in love with you. I'm not sure I can handle this.

I'm falling in love with a married woman...

I'm sad that you don't think that this could work. I know that I really like you, and I care about you, and I'm sad that I can't seem to make that okay with you. I wish you could accept that you can care about me, and that will be alright. It is okay to care about people, and for them to make you ha...

realizing that one person cannot be the cause of my happiness

ridiculous for being this anxious about her coming over.

and yet, still terrified about her coming over

even though that's irrational

still terrified and elated at the same time.

I'm feeling anxious because the girl I like and have gone on a few dates with said she was going to stop by later. I feel sure she's going to stop things, even though I know that's irrational. I feel foolish for letting this get to me so much. I know it's irrational, and I'm still freaking out. I fe...

Sometimes I don't know how to ask for the things that I need, and I know this isn't defined as a relationship yet, but I need to know that you care about me. It is absolutely essential for me to let my heart go anywhere, and my heart is already long gone. But I'm not going to be able to do that. I'm...

excited, but worried that my heart is moving too quickly for my head.

gross

exhausted.

angry.
frustrated.
like my head is going to explode.

overwhelmed.
anxious.
like i can't possibly get everything done.

upset.
anxious.
like my head is spinning out of control.

like I'll never be able to get everything done, but I could if I could just start anything.
unmotivated.
like everything just needs to stop.