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That's almost five months si free, and that's something to really be proud of. It sounds like you're doing a great job distracting yourself and finding other healthy things to do. I know the amount of knitted goods I produced went up dramatically after I got serious about stopping si :roll: I think ...

"You're a lifeguard, not a deathguard." I almost cried right then and there. That's horrible! I can't believe someone would say that, you poor thing, sounds like you've had a really tough day. Doesn't help that last night, when I went to Wal-mart with my mother, I stole blabes. I broke the law over...

what had happened just before? I was posting stuff...I was feeling urgy for no reason. I posted a Before...then I posted something else that brought a lot of feelings to the surface and posted another before...then I SIed. No reason? You talk about feelings though, and, as someone who could win a g...

Hi Terr, Welcome to BUS, have a cow :moo: BUS is a great resource. I'm in individual & group therapy, and sometimes I find it really helpful to come here while dealing with the strong emotions those bring up. You mention you had been doing a task where it was easy to hurt yourself, so you did. Are t...

Sounds like a plan :) When I was in the working shit out phase (well, still am...but when I was starting it anyway) I think the thing that helped me most was looking at my physical sensations before and after self-injury. Example: before SI I usually felt tense, or had a headache After: My stomach m...

Ronda, The first thing I noticed about your post was that even after the incident of self-injury, you were still beating up on yourself. Talking about 'shoulds' and not deserving to feel how you do. Why? Why on earth don't you deserve emotions? I think the hardest thing for me in my therapy (yes, I ...

That's awesome. I think it's fantastic that you are finding alternatives to SI and learning how to cope with urges. Taking meds consistently is a huge step Congratulations.

JoAnna

Hey Laura, First of all, I wanted to catch that little "sorry" in the heading and just remind you that you don’t have to be sorry for self-injuring or sorry for posting, which ever the case may be. It sounds like that situation was very emotionally threatening in a lot of ways - Failure: you made an...

okay, here we go. This is mostly about anger itself, not really how to deal with it. But I thought you could use some general information about the emotion. I know I go back to this post in sourcebook a lot. The original post is here ANGER WORDS anger aggravation agitation annoyance bitterness conte...

Expressing anger? Well, I struggle with that problem too, but I've been working on healthier ways of expressing anger, here are a few: - hitting a pillow (sometimes I just pound on my bed) - screaming or yelling (alone works, it doesn't have to be at someone) - telling the person I'm upset with why ...

First of all (and most importantly), 35 days is really great. I'm concerned that you mentioned your husbands anger is hurting your kids. Is he aware that you feel this way and/or that the idea of sex with him is unappealing to you? It sounds like you have a pretty good idea of the kind of boundries ...

.. *shrug* but maybe you're right, maybe i shouldn't be here yet. i'll be back when i know what i want... whoa, I never said you weren't ready to be here yet. I just wanted you to look at your language a little. And yes, I know that place in between wanting to be healthy and wanting to SI very well...

I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't have much to say except I had a similar situation with my mother. She said she could never trust me to make good choices. We've healed some with time, I think that self-injury is just such a hard thing for parents to understand...but it sucks when they act lik...

Wow. That sounds like a really tough situation. For me, not knowing what was going to happen next (esp. emotionally) was always a big trigger. Good job for taking a look at it.. Your answers make it sounds a little bit like you think self-injury would be a good choice right now, so I'm wondering why...

It sounds like you are very confused. Have you decided if you want to give up self-injury? I know when I was going back and forth between deciding to give it up and thinking "well, it works..." it was very hard to deal with urges. I'm also unclear- do you dissociate at all? Because you keep talking ...

You keep saying you feel like a slut. What does a slut feel like? Slut is not an emotion. So are you sad, are you angry at yourself, are you upset, frustrated, overwhelmed? What are you feeling?

I'm glad you have found so many healthy ways of releasing your feelings.

take care,
JoAnna

the sig is valid?

Happily the rest, but not the little sad "defeated" face. That I don't think is so valid. I don't think I will ever be able to think of you as "defeated."

JoAnna

Wow, that really does sound like it would be hard to deal with. What's important isn't that you made the choice to watch the tv show, but that you made the choice to fight the urges it triggered. And that was the right choice

JoAnna

I think it's great you are so strong about quitting & it sounds like you have a lot of other coping mechanisms that you know will help. If you feel comfortable, do you think you can discuss what it was about what was on TV that triggered you? If you can work that out, it might help you understand ho...

Like limestone said, I keep a bottle of red finger paint in my emergency box. When I'm really urgey and feel like I just have to play with blood I take it out and spread it around where I want to self-injure. I usually do this in the shower, simply for easy clean-up, and watching the red paint run d...