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Yes... my pdoc knows about the severity of my SI and about the urges. Right now, I haven't SI'd in 7 months and am just taking it a day at a time. Thanks for your feedback

Thanks for the feedback, Kcat. "urge-surfing" is something I have to keep trying to do. Fortunately, today the urges aren't as major and I've got more to distract myself with. I guess it really is a day at a time, huh?

Right now I feel pretty close to SI'ing. The urges aren't nearly as strong as they've been in the past, but I feel less of a desire to fight them. It doesn't help that I've had SI dreams for the last 2 nights. It feels almost inevitable right now, but maybe it can be prevented. If I hurt myself, my ...

Thanks for the feedback. I just won't read threads that require side-scrolling action That way, I'll hopefully stay less annoyed.

Sometimes when I read a thread on the message boards, I have to constantly scroll left and right to read it because it does not fit on my screen otherwise. I don't always have this problem and I think it is caused by people putting too many images side by side in their signatures... I don't know. Bu...

I can relate to this... it drives me crazy sometimes!! In my experience, the best way to avoid these obsessions is to distract myself. If I feed into them, they often lead to actual SI.

I lost my dad a little over a year ago. The anniversary was difficult and I also don't let-on to my mom and brothers that I'm struggling because I want to be there for them. This year, I volunteered to help a friend with her new camp for adolescents beginning on the 1-year anniversary of dad's death...

Hmmmmmm... what non-SI specific coping mechanisms do I have for dealing with regular school stresses? Hmmmmmmmm :oconf: ::::thinking:::: long-term coping mechanisms... there's gotta be some... hmmmmm. It would be easier if this were multiple choice!!!! :tongue: Usually I deal with school stress by k...

I've been stressed out this week because I'm going back to college on the 7th. The situation won't actually change if I hurt myself, but I'll feel a little bit calmer and less anxious about school. I'll feel a little bit more able to handle the stress of going back to classes, but I will also have i...

I have a scar that says "pain" along with a name and several symbol scars. For me, the worst thing about these is that they let others see how I truly feel and that scares me. The other bad thing is that since my scars are keloids, they sometimes change as they heal. And what used to clearly say "pa...

About 10 years ago when I first started getting help for SI, having more visible injuries, etc, doctors often responded very negatively to me. Some were sarcastic and some were downright rude. In the last couple of years, I have not been in as many situations where a doctor would see my scars, so I ...

I used to eat those giant fireball candies when I needed a pain reaction. But now they don't hurt anymore They still taste good, though

Yeah, I feel drawn towards drama. I try to stand back from my feelings enough to be rational and not get sucked into the chaos. It's hard, but I just keep trying.

I have both word and symbol scars. Your suggestion is a very good idea... I just might try it! Thanks!

Yep, I can relate! I have said many times that I feel like an SI junkie. The cravings can be so major sometimes. I really thought that after I had gone a couple of months without SI, the cravings would go away. Oddly, though, the first couple of months were easier for me than the last few months hav...

1. Biskit the Wonderdog... my best friend in the entire world 2. my human best friend 3. a computer for contact with the outside world (assuming there's an outlet of course) 4. a cd player with lots of cd's 5. a boat... so I can leave the island if things get too intense (is that cheating???) :tongue:

I put it off for a few minutes... and then again... and again... and again. Umm, I'm still doing that.

I agree that grief is a bit of an up and down process. My dad died last year and sometimes I feel like I've dealt with it and moved on and many times I feel a wide array of different emotions relating to it. I just try to remember that whatever I'm feeling won't be the way I'm feeling forever... tha...

I have heard a lot different ideas on alternatives to SI (behaviors that allow the person to get the desired response without actually harming their bodies). Honestly, I never tried any of those alternatives (bright, huh? :tongue: ) But the other day, I ended up stumbling onto something that just mi...

Thanks for the welcomes and the helpful advice. To answer your question (Chameleon) no, I don't have a therapist. I have been to many different therapists over the years and got tired of the many problems I've had with them. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and got to the point where I have no tr...