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It is odd isn't it? There are times when i am not even really upset or depressed...i just can't let go of the images...the urge...

and other times i am so depressed i can't function and It doesn't even occur to me...

It is difficult to have flashbacks...sometimest hey are so real that you just can't deal...things that my counselor suggested to me is paying attention to the physical aspects of the room here in the present...the color of the carpet, the feel of the whatever you are touching...it helps you to not b...

Melly,
I can relate. It seems to happen in a great number of things in life, you must do more to achieve the same relief. I there are times when i can't drown out the thoughts..they are there...and they get more explicit each time...what matters is that you not *DO* them...

You guys are the best


thank you for making me feel not so alone

JoAnna,

You Rock my world! (in a good way)

thank you!

*SI* * * * * * * * * * So the reason i brought this up is because last week at work i "saw" all of my old scars bleeding...it was quite disturbing and i had to take a smoke break, it wasn't a hallucenation or anything...just a vivid imagining...and i haven't cut in at least a year...it is odd those ...

i was beggining to think it was just me!


i do have to distract myself quite a lot.

* * * * * * So as it is with other addictions, such as alcoholism...sometimes the worst part is the ideation of something...the longing for it, the thought of it that can consume you... How do you deal with these thoughts? It isn't an urge to cut so much as it is a vivid picturing of it; I can see i...

ok i tired this once...lets see if this works..

it is nice to meet you!

* * * * * * * * So hi...I am posting this here because the other boards I read seem like the younger set... I started SI at 14...and at 18 I found the BDSM community and threw myself into masochistic behavior...all the while being *proud* that my SI happened less and less frequently...in the last 5 ...