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quit fucking with my head. I will not talk to you while you manipulte me by saying you are SIing or SUing. You have done it too many times. I don't believe you any more and then I wont know when the real time will come. and you are so far away I wish I could just hold you and then all the bad times ...

I feel that once my scars have faded and there are no fresh cuts I won't have a problem showing them. if people want to stare that's their problem. They don't know what those scars mean to me. They mean life saving pain relief, they mean my struggle was real, they show the inside me on the outside. ...

[quote="limestone"]Why do you visit before and after? What do you get out of it? Helps me look at what I am doing instead of just feelining What prompts you to think posting might be a good idea? i.e. what thought, feeling, or what happens I would like to understand myself better Do you find the rep...

thanks so much Dragonfly. I think the main place where I wish people knew more about what is going on with me is at work. But I see how other people there are stigmatized for having similar issues and I'm afraid they won't trust me if they know. you're right, I'm not getting the help I need and it i...

* have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yeah mostly, still stopping the bleeding * what had happened just before? been thinking about it all day * what were you thinking and feeling? It will show people my pain * why did you end up hurting yourself then ins...

went shopping with a friend! This is huge for me.

brother--I want to talk to you, to get to know you again. I want to compare our childhoods. I'm sorry I was cruel to you when we were younger. I want to be family again. I wish we didn't live so far apart, I understand why you can't leave the ocean. I want to know you, I want to help you. I know you...

Welcome to Bus. You are not alone. You may want to post on the main page, you'll get more responses there.

I have severe depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and social anxiety disorder. I am also trying to figure out how to handle those anxiety attacks. I often lock myself in my office and play pinball on the computer, or go outside for a looong smoke break. I need to figure out something better th...

Oh yeah, up, down, side ways, loop the loop. Right now I'm down down down and feeling like I'll never go up again. But I know that when eventually I do go up again I won't remember just how low I was. I can understand that people would think that if you freakded out the other day you should be low, ...

What does don't use tables mean?

Sending you support. Try to stay strong, you are worth it.

I am an cat rescuer and am very upset to hear about animanl abuse. I joined a group called Best Friends b/c instead of focusing on the negative and telling horror stories, they focus on the positive and tell you all the good things that are happening with animal rights. I feel safe opening mail from...

If you don't trust your counselor could you see someone else. I have really bad nightmares about stuff. When I write it down and show it to my t she can see connections in it that I can't and it makes it seem more manageable. Good luck. Flashbacks are awful.

PS congrats on your 6 months SI free!!!! That''s great.

To get in the chip program go to the admin and tech support part and check out the bus faq. There's info on it there. I totally know what you mean about bad therapists. I wish there was an online guide where people could rate their therapist so you would know who to avoid and who to try. I haven't b...

my SI started to progress dramatically in the last few months and thankfully I found BUS. Being able to talk about my feelings and get feedback onbUS has been the most helpful to me. Right now, knowing I'm going to the beach to see my family is holding me in check but each day is a struggle. I have ...

Good luck with stopping. The first step is wanting to stop.

Sending positive thoughts to you.

Thanks for being on bus

We all help each other

stay safe

Good luck with stopping. The first step is wanting to stop.

Sending positive thoughts to you.

Thanks for being on bus

We all help each other

stay safe