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i need you to talk to me. i cant stand when u wait so long to talk to me. i hate that i depend on you so much, but i do. i feel so pathetic depending on you so much. i feel like youre going to leave me because i am so demanding. i cant help it. i have this hole inside that i cant fill with anything....

beachgirl: youre right, writing does help. but even at my place here on bus, i feel like im not allowed to post all this negative stuff that i feel. i dont want to be a pessimist all the time. i feel like its not ok for me to be negative all teh time. but i guess if those are my feelings, then its o...

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thank you all for replying.... im sorry i couldnt thank you sooner but i just got home from a 10 day hospital stay. i ended up self injuring and ODing. but i asked for help, unfortunatly it was after the fact... thank you all for your support i really missed it while i was gone

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i need to hurt myself because my heart is hurting and i dont know why. ive gone so long and im like a rubber band about to snap. i need to SI because i want to relax. Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How d...

i decided to watch a few movies instead

i didnt want to end up back at the psych ward

i thought of my little bro and that this time i might leave him forever.