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Thank you Niccki for your encouragement. I really do want to believe you! Your reply meant a lot to me!!

Caro xoxox

I'm glad to know that I'm not alone burried under these endless feelings. I don't know... sometimes I feel stupid for feeling depressed and I know I shouldn't because somedays... nothing goes wrong. I just can't help the way I feel. I wish I could. Let me know how the counselling went on Monday Iaml...

Hey Matt,

I wish I could help you but this has never happen to me before. Perhaps your doctor should send you to a specialist who will be able to answer your questions. I'm always here to listen...

Caro

I feel restless, helpless, sad, angry, frustrated, depressed, hopeless, down, worthless, ugly, powerless, confused, unmotivated, misunderstood, hurt, empty... I feel like the world is moving and leaving me behind. I feel like I can't catch up. It's such an ugly cycle: you feel shitty so you cut, an...

I was 13 years old... that was 5 years ago. I really don't remember where I first got the idea of SI. It was during the time my parents were getting a divorce. I remember where I did it and exactly what the cut looked like... but why? Why wouyld I ever decide to SI?? I really can't answer that... it...

Sometimes... It just hurts too much, and then the tears won't come.It's horrible to feel so shitty. It's such an ugly feeling.

Some say, it's good too cry.. to let it all out. I'm not sure. Because when you cry, it's just a concrete way of feeling your pain. I don't even know what I'm saying.

Sleep! (me too)

It makes me escape reality and wonder away in my dreams. But then... you wake up.

Last week, I wrote the words "I wish I could die" on my body. It was the first time I wrote words... and I'm still not sure what made me do it. I don't want to die ....