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I am... *tense * angry *sad *lonely i am not... *happy *happy with my life *calm *resolved *sociable i feel... *lonely *insignificant *sick *hungry *weak *tired i want... *water *food *a hug * company *solitude *stability *relaxation *alchohol/weed/drugs i need... * a hug * food *company *solitude *...

I am * Calm * peaceful * not depressed * bored * comfort eating I am not * feeling creative * feelign alive *satisfied I feel * frustrated *bored * disatisfied * irritable * placid. I want *sex * money * food * peace * piercings * a lover I need * a hug *relief * a cry I have * a great haircut * cr...

i am... needy, out of work, panicking about the possibility of failing first year of uni cos of missing lessons. stressed out. i am not... ugly, stupid, happy, stable or safe. i feel... cold. blunt. needy. panicky. paranoid. bored. tense. aggressive. i want... a hug, to fall in love, to have sex, t...

yes. yes. yes. always. stupid, tiny incidents that mean nothing, i dwell on for days.

also perhaps you should re-post in Bodies under siege, more people go there, you might get a much more helpful repsonse

let it go. if god exists you can't get at him, if he doesn't, no problem. the only thing proven to change the world are resolute individuals making a difference, however small. Maybe you should look at the principles of humanism - humanists teach that it is everyone's duty to make the world a better...

"house" is actually a pretty cool programme. unfortuneately that's the best i can think of right now.

panicky. desperate to cry and even more desperate to sleep, but i need to hold it together.

i wish i felt beautiful, i wish i felt normal, i wish i generally had more fun and more money.

silencebroken: thank you for your support :) its nice to know i'm not over-reacting. Plantt: that... leads me to believe that there was some sort of deciding point. an 'yeah i'm going to cut now' type thing. well...yeh, I even sterilised a razor blade because i had used it previously for shaving my ...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes, i ahd the plaster out before the razor blade. what had happened just before? I had learned that i might have to re-take the first year of college, and huge financial problems what were you thinking and feeling? Pan...

One thing I have discovered REALLY helps is to walk into town by myself with my headphones in playing punk music at a volume i can't have in my room. The positive, self-affirming lyrics and music and just the simple feeling of solitude (i actually prefer to go places by myself sometimes, i NEED alon...

well for one thing I'm gonna take things REALLY slowly. my main aim at the moment is sleep more, stop drugs,drink less, cut out dairy products (i suspect i'm lactose intolerant and that that is causing a great deal of my sluggishness). plus i have realised that a great deal of my depression is proba...

Maybe it's about time I did. Face up to things I mean.

Ok, so i cut, and nothing, I take drugs, nothing, none of my old coping techniques are working. help!

I am not sure if it was definitely sexual abuse but it was definitely abuse. he abused your trust and attempted to manipulate you. that's wrong.

I felt ugly all last week. teh only thing I can suggest is making yourself feel pretty by doing something small, even if it's just paitnign your nails or something.

lol, your tutor should not be teaching that class if they have such a biased, cruel opinion.

my moods have been swinging like a monkey all week and it's driving me crazy. at the moment i actually feel ok, but with sadness underneath and i've got no reason to feel like that...

I can't relate on that deep a level, but I've lost both my grandfathers,to cancer and heart disease respectively and wanted to extend my sympathy. I still miss them and I hope you're ok.