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Thank you CK, it's really comforting to know that someone's read
Thank you.

This is my first post in this forum, sorry if this isn't what i'm supposed to write. Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Because I hate being so out of control. I read Maria's LJ and she's so happy with Tim... Tim who I loved enough to give my virginity to, Tim wh...

Exhausted.
Buzzed.
Fucked off.
Preemptivly disappointed.
Scared.
Blah.
Out of it.

YOU MOTHERFUCKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 GET THE FUCK OVER.... ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

grr.

I know a lot of self injurers who have embraced masochism. Personally, I know that I will stop cutting all together if I am in an s/m type relationship that is stable and that I know the other person is entirely into. If there's any doubt in my mind about the relationship or if I know that the other...

Brittany: You picked Corey over Nick?!? You fucking retard! Be nice to him you fucking slut... I don't know who I mean by HIM. Nick was too good for you all along but Corey is a good guy, deep down. Get your fangs out of the both of them and don't you dare even think about going near Nick when Corey...

out of it
light headed
sick
sore
stupid

Leon: How do you look like you do? How do you weigh 10 kgs less than me while being almost the same height? How do you do it? Please tell me... Lewis and Ben G: Why do you wear long sleeves all the time? Are you hiding your skinniness, because everyone can see you're both twigs, or is it something e...

i am... - tired - sore - out of it - hungry - intruiged... - cold i am not... - warm - happy - safe feeling - content i feel... - depressed - fat - mentally exhausted - fake - useless i want... - brittany to leave nick alone - corey to stop being a dick (ha!) - to burn... a lot - my dylan - things ...

hey brittany... FUCK YOU!!! standing around flirting with nick's best mate while nick was just outside? that's low. even for you who spends half your time on your knees in front of some guy or another. oy, corey... stop being such a dick to avalon! she puts up with you which is more than she should....

nick: stop being a fucking idiot!!! brittany doesn't love you! she doesn't give 2 flying fucks about you! you know what she said to me? "i dumped him because i felt nothing when we kissed". and you think that she WANTS YOU?!? wake up, shithead. brittany: you're ugly. you're stupid. i hope some of th...

general irl - sorry if/ that i made you start ( this does not include you laura ) l- i'm sorry you couldn't talk to me about it mia- i'm sorry i encouraged you to do it... i'm sorry for when i think that you deserve it and sorry for badmouthing your c-ts to anyone and everyone ray/nick/brittanyetc -...

Alright... I want to share this to drive in the point of how horrible it is and for how long it can affect you. Please learn something from my mistakes as I have. Spoiler for graphicness, eating disorders, being abusive, alcohol, SI, language and talking about feelings i felt at the time (covering a...

honestly, just sleep
anything that makes me tired enough to barely be able to move is my friend...
also reading and the internet... well, not all of it, but a lot