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Simon: CAN WE STOP WITH THE FUCKING FAT JOKES ALREADY?!? Duck: Was that to me? So confused... Pixie: LLLLLLLLLBBBBBBBBB!!!! T: It's only YOU I don't want it with. Richey: Stop teasing me! It's fully not funny any more. Gemma: Get your own fucking boyfriend to lust after you dumb slut. Then again, I ...

Put then inside a bunch of cakes and cookies and things and tell the person you're on a diet and that the cookies etc are symbolic of your struggle with calories.

And then hope like hell the person doesn't eat them.

Maybe my idea isn't the best...

Depressed.

M: Get over yourself, he's essentially a good guy. Ok, he's not, but he likes you. Don't be such a retard.

Nick: *Huggles* I do actually like you, despite how it may appear. You annoy the shit out of me some times but I do like you...

R: You're a fucking tease, be good.

Tim: You're a horrible fucking person, you know that? You and Maria are the perfect fucking couple. Between the 2 of you you can make me feel anything. You're a horrible fucking person, Tim. Telling me I'm hot, that you would have gotten with me if you'd have known how hot I'd get blah blah blah. Fu...

Fat.
Angry.
Sad.
Lonely.
Unloved.
Helpless.
Like a fraud...

nofuckingfair.
fuckallofthis.
fuckit.

I'm currently trying to get rid of the ones on my arms.

Don't know about the rest though...

Richard: Yes, I want to fuck you. Cope. No need to get all freaked out and pissed off, you're the one who's been hitting on me constantly. Isaac: If you don't like someone then don't speak to them, you dumb cunt. Maria: You're a dumb fucking whore, you know that? Haven't you done enough to Chris. Ha...

Richard - You're hot. Isaac - Ok... It's kind of weird that you know who I am and that you noticed me looking at you (and by me looking at you I mean YOU looking at ME) but you know Nick and Richard and all of them so you can't be that bad, even if you're hateful, racist and God only knows whatelse....

disappointed.
pissed off at my past self.
worried.
confused.

Have you thought of joining a forum for eating disorders to get some support? I would recommend http://lunchbox-forums.com . They have a support forum and distractions aplenty as well as disorder specific forums, other things (such as self injury and drugs) oriented forums, a diaries forum and many ...

most people: my dad's in town... he's a rapist. he's an asshole... mum: i want to get to know him... he's my father, it's my right to find out for myself. nick (bf): stay away from brittany? and gemma? brittany: leavenickthefuckaloneyoudumbwhoreoriwillmakeyou so help me god. [insert name here]: you ...

because it's addictive
because it makes people worry
because food tastes good
because you want to enjoy life
because you want recovery enough to ask us about it...

- finding out where i'm going on exhcnage.
- seeing nick.
- the ball.
- seeing chris at the ball who i haven't seen in ages.

Lewis: Wanna go out some time? Nick: I want things to go futher or stop... I don't want to just fuck you. I want more. You say I'm the hottest chick you know, so why don't you ask me out? make something of your words. Make me like myself. You have that power. I like myself when I'm in bed with you a...

I voted yes but I think I probably should have voted the unsure one... I have nothing against people who display their blatently obvious scars or their new injuries to the world. I can understand not wanting to have to hide them and all that but... It can be triggery to other people, it can lead to ...

Hugs.
Mail.
Boys.
Hard rain when inside and warm with a good book.
Cookie dough.

Kittie: Please don't come back. Stay away. Stay in Napier, stay in Gisbourne, stay <I>anywhere</I> but here! You leave and suddenly I find myself happy and eating. You come back and... i don't want to know. Jonathan: Pull your fucking head in, boy. Admit you have an eating disorder, admit you need h...

thank you everyone who has replied.
i have taken what you said on board and it makes a lot of sense.
i keep thinking i'm all good with the maria/tim situation but then it seems i'm not.
time, i guess...

thank you