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Coping is very hard to get through when SI is all you've ever known to get through something so hard... It's like once you get rid of SI in your life there's this huge void in your life that drives you back to SI, but you have to have the will to cope with the urges and not act on them.

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i am...
~beautiful
~alive

i am not...
~ugly
~stupid

i feel...
~heartbroken
~bittersweet

i want...
~love
~to win a contest (heh)

i need...
~love
~happiness

i have...
~friends
~a heart

i love...
~my bus bussies
~my friend Dan

i hate...
~the color green
~pop music...

Marcus - I love you more than I could ever express in words. I need you so badly, like air... Please please PLEASE never hurt me like I have been in the past. I love you so much.... Kayla - I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Katie: YOU STUPID IDIOT I HOPE I NEVER SEE OR TALK TO YOU AGAIN! HOW ...

I just don’t want to fight it…I know I would feel happier and more in control if I cut. I would feel stronger. I would feel more…justified. I think I am getting thrown off by the medication (I recently started taking Lexapro). I feel like that quite often when I get urges or when I feel triggered t...

I CAN'T STAND YOU!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

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Thank you for bringing my siggy back!

I hope they come back soon.
I love my siggy!

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thank you for your kindness

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have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes... four bandages on them and I've washed them very good. what had happened just before? My boyfriend Brett broke up with me and not to mention the stress of the Ohio Graduation Test weighing down on me... what were...

hey there lyndsie. I'm sorry that you've been having a rough time. I'm glad that you're trying though. Be proud of that! All those factors in your life do tend to add up after a while. At least you're not giving up. You take care and sorry I don't have anything GOOD to say :roll: I'm kinda out of it...

Thank you very much. *smiles*

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Thank you. Today's 77 days. I've been SI free 11 weeks now. I'm just totally amazed and well beaming with pride for myself.

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Just wanted to update everyone on how I'm doing on being SI Free... 76 DAYS SI FREE :blush: Biggest accomplishment I've ever made I'm so proud of myself. Tomorrow it will be 77 Days SI Free (11 Weeks) I get another Week badge from my T. And not mention from here hahah. :blush: It's getting easier fo...

Thank you =very much truce for your great advice and your good thoughts. Much needed. I think I may be ok now because I got myself distracted and the urges and stress has lowered greatly. Thank God for my favorite tv show American Chopper, it got my mind off everything. But thank you very much for y...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will go away - even for a short while. I just need to get rid of this stress... Just everything... There's a bubble of problems hovering over me, breaking my back day by day. I don't know how much more I can take. It will just go away.....

Cool Idea! I have the same thing with winter. It makes me sad because I had cold weather and snow and all the yucky weather that makes me sad. But here's what I'll do... :star: Spend more time with friends :star: Read a good book next to the heater - haha :star: Try to get outside and see how pretty...

Thank you very much.

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I can relate. But I really don't wanna go into details about it since if I write about it it may trigger me. But I do relate to it.

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