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I'll try.

I dont know what I am gonna do.

I know. I'll get there.

ok that was a crummy lie. I keep tekkin everyone oh yea, I'll do this, I'll do that. but I know I won't. I'll keep bein crummy me. I'm such a stupid bitch. I keep lying and I just can't handle it. I want it all to go away. Make it stop.

yes yes I know.

I don't wanna stop. I just am addicted to it at this point. I know I'm alive when I SI. I can feel pain. I know that I am human. I remember that i am mortal. Yet I still want it to end.

heh I just realized that maybe inside I dont wanna cope. maybe I wanna be this way.

yea. I'll try thanks.

I dont know. all the meds I've taken haven't worked. I just wish I knew. I feel trapped not knowing.

it isnt chemical, and we figured out how much of it was stress, but everyone keeps saying that there is something deeper, and I know there is, but I do not know what.

How do you cope with depression if you don't know what's causing it?

How do you cope with something if you don't even know what it is?

its funny, beacuse the only death I've been thinking about since I wrote this is my own. I wanna die so much. I cant cope with the fact that I shouldnt, and yet inside I don't care. All I really want is to die. I think about it day and night. All the time. I even know many ways I could do it.

Yea. Everytime I get over it though it comes back at me. I'll get through it though.

gee who are some of ur jerks? No dont answer, personally I dont really wanna know.

we are all here for you. Face it, your not alone. Even when you think you are.

*sigh* I was just thinking about death. Is there any way to ever deal with it? All of the deaths I've ever had to deal with have been people or animals that were very close to me. When I was 8 My grandpa died. He and I had always been very close I still haven't gotten over it. I just feel weird asbo...

hey PinkPokaDottedBunnyRabbit, : ) thanks, its good to know u are there and that i can talk to u--and thank u for the advice....had a bad moment there- its good to know i have my friends :) We all have our bad moments. God knows, I've had mine. I'm always here for you sissy. Twitter Mouse is too. Y...

Hey, I know your alive. I also know what it's like to be in that position. I've been there. Them only reason I am here is because my friends helped me to realize that the only way to change anything is to help others. I have learned that the only way to dig yourself out of your hole is to help other...

that is a good way to cope with it. Myabe it will help you to cope with cutting in general. It's something that people can do with regular cutting. I 've something similar to that. For each scar I have I put a problem with it, and then solve that problem. when I have solved all of them, I search thr...