bus

I think I am scared to go on my trip and that's the real reason I am procrastinating packing.

I'm not letting the emotional flashback voices get to me!

You're an F---in B----d

Thanks for forgiving me so much!

overwhelmed
scared
fat
useless
afraid
tired
alone

I don't think I will ever be able to be employed again and I am scared

I still feel like you are mad at me and things will never be the same.

Because I served lunch to out of town relatives, and this is a hard thing for me to do...

A star I made that hangs on my computer desk above my computer, it's all different pretty colors, blue, pink, purple. It's so pretty.

I made it in crafts when I was in the phosp once. It is just a happy thing.

I'm sorry, I should have told him to F-off.

SI/SU triggers.. I cut pretty badly today(I freaked out) and we are going away and will be swimming in a pool and going in a hot tub right after Christmas, they will be visible to everyone, I will be so embarrassed, the friends we are visiting have no idea I cut..... And I came so close to ODing tod...

the edge of the world wrote: hello Seeshellz! my name is edge and I'm also a Busaholic

We should start a BUSaholics anonymous club...

We should! LOL!!!

I'm proud of myself today because I was scared to go to group therapy and I could have easily stayed home but I pushed myself to go! And it wasn't easy!

^hope you made it seashellz!^ I did make it even though it was scary thank you! :D i am proud of myself for yesterday/tuesday becasue i held onto my temper for so long. i've never held on to it for more than half an hour, but i managed to not lose it for more tahn 6 hours! and when i did, there was...

I'm afraid of being lonely, everyone being away and such, and afraid everyone will be away from BUS too! Do you think that will happen, will BUS really slow down alot?

I can't remember from last year.

my old boyfriend is now stalking me

I'm going to go out shopping this afternoon even though I am so scared to do so and am having so much anxiety and panic, and I'd rather cancel and hide in bed, but I'm going to push myself..

I wish I knew some answers, lately it is getting worse for me cause BUS helps me with my anxiety and depression, gets my mind off my probs and stuff...

Hey that's like a drug????

My name is Seeshellz and I'm a Busaholic....

I Pmed saphire!