bus

I think cause you were SU and were ODing and stuff it triggered me to feel like ODing again, I don't know if that is the reason but it is really weird? I don't want to stop you coming to me for support, I don't know what to do??? Cause I really care for you and love you and want to help you, but I d...

depressed
anxious
I want to avoid people
I don't want to go to grp
angry?
tired
wierd
useless
can't concentrate well

I'm proud of myself because I'm back on my Weight Watcher's diet after going off of it on vacation and I'm proud of myself for going for a 40 min walk even if it was with my Mom, part of it was by myself and it was scary for me!

I want to escape myself and I don't know why.

Do you really love care about me like you used to? Why do you get so mad at me so easily? I'm not your punching bag, just cause you can't take your frustrations out on anyone else, it's not OK to take it out on me. I'm not even a part of it. You made the choice to marry her. You deal with it with he...

All of a sudden I am getting my old urges to OD again and I don't understand why I am triggered to do that old bad behavior?

I basically wake up to BUS and then before I go to bed I say goodbye to BUS!

I just voted. Busaholic all of the way!!!!

Cool poll!

coping questionnaire : :) Do you use coping methods (healthy ones... :wink: ) in combination or just on their own? :uhhh: :pinkstar: mostly on their own Name something that helps you to cope beginning with the letter 'A'. :pinkstar: action, taking action! Do you see coping ideas as ways to banish f...

Now it is new years eve, and I am all alone all day and night. I did have plans with my friend K. But she cancelled out at the last minute. She said she wanted to be alone? She was gonna come over to my place and we were gonna hang out, watch a movie, and just talk. But now it's too late for anythin...

My stalker came to visit me today. I talked to him really nice like my therapist said, telling him no I don't want to be his friend, no it wouldn't work, etc...being really nice, even though I was so scared! I hope this is the last time he comes. My therapist thinks this will do it.

PMs OK

You came to visit me today R. I hope this is the very last time. I don't need you to stalk me anymore! I am afraid of you, can't you understand that? This is why I had my number changed and now it is unlisted. Please just leave me alone!!!

I want to cry. I am lonely. But I can't cry.

I'm using my mental illness as an excuse of why I can't go over to dinner at my Mom and Dad's. They are having my Brother's family there, I guess it does have to do with my mental illness, my anxiety, panic, phobic disorder goes full blown when I have dinner with them all.

anxious
scared
devious
lonely
alone
stressed
worried

This morning I am leaving for a few days without BUS access!

OH NO!! now what I am going to do!!

I'm so used to being on BUS everyday.

All the time away I will be awaiting the time I can get back on BUS!!

A true BUSaholic!!!

I'm sorry I was so negative yesterday M.

anxious
alone
scared
panicky
headachey

I have a relative that looks so dumpy in her bath robe when we go to visit and she puts on an act that's she's something and all, but my goodness, that bathrobe! It looks so ratty, does she realize that?

Just needed to say that, cause I can't say it anywhere else.

I got most of my packing done, and I was procrastinating really bad.