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I wish I could cry, maybe it would help. But I was trained from childhood that crying was wrong. And I have a hard time crying.

I need her help, but I hate it.

I Can't stand you taking over my life!!! :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh...

I appreciate your help so much, I really do, I don't know what I would do without your help...But I can't stand it!!!! At the same time I can't stand it!!!!! I don't know what to do!!! I'm in a no win situation. Because of my mental health I need your help, at the same time I hate it....I hate being...

Seeshellz wrote:I'm so anxious and panicky it feels like my heart is going to pop out of my chest!!!

AGAIN!!!

I can't take this!!!!

In five years I will be:

At my goal healthy weight and exercising regularily

Dealt and coping with my issues

Have a part-time job or volunteering

Not afraid to go out in public

Having a good relationship with my Dad

I have a new one now. I love coffee, and it says Java, which stands for coffee!

Ultimately it's my Mom, thinking of her always stops me from SU.

I am angry at you! Even though when you ask I deny it.

I keep calling you like you asked, but you do not return my calls. What does this mean? Does it mean you do not want to talk to me? Or are you hyberating again? Are you avoiding life again as a way of coping with your depression. I don't know if I can handle not knowing how you are doing. You could ...

tired
anxious
headachey
unsure
torn
stressed
afraid

I woke up to BUS this morning, went to my Moms and came home, what do I do? Turn on BUS!!!

True BUSAHOLIC!!!

I am sad - because I hardly see my 3 1/2 year old nephew because he lives so far away

I am happy - because today I got to see him and play with him and he told me he loved me straight from his little heart

I'm proud of myself today because I made an effort to go for a walk all alone...

I wish I could cry, maybe it would help!!!

Living in an apt means I can't scream IRL!!!

After you left I started to freak and I am still freaking hours later. I can't seem to handle what we talked about. I'm still not used to you yet I guess. I thought I was able to tell you that stuff, I guess not. Now what do I do?

I'm so anxious and panicky it feels like my heart is going to pop out of my chest!!!

I have ODed too many times, I guess I never learned, but the pain was so bad. The charcoal is so disgusting, repulsive sandlike milkshake that is sweetened supposedly to make it taste better. It doesn't the last few times I had to have it put down my nose because I threw it up too much. Yes, if you...

Y I don't understand you, all my life you treated me like crap, put me down, abuse, the odd time you were nice and I didn't understand? Still I doubt your love for me. I really don't think you love me, or do you? I have so much therapy about this and they are convincing me you do love me in your own...