bus

P, thanks for talking me through this flashback, and finding me a solution to my problem.

And thanks M, for driving me there, instead of me walking, I'm now terrified because of the flashback to walk, afraid he'll get me, I know it doesn't make sense, but neither does PTSD, thank you so much..

I just had a major flashback and I'm all messed up now...he's coming to get me...I'm still scared...

Everybody Hurts - REM

anxious
alone
and I hate myself

I just can't seem to get off BUS today!!!!

I think this will be my last post for today though!

Is that step one?

Losing My Religion - REM

very anxious
down

was feeling good but my PSTD is now acting up... had a panic attack and feeling anxious and having these weird feelings about my ex....

Goodbye Earl - Dixie Chicks

I am hurting for you. What your parents put you through. What they are putting you through now!!! :x And you take the anger out on yourself. You hurt yourself. I wish you would allow yourself to get angry at them? It's OK, they don't have to know about it. You could write your anger out and even bur...

:star: PJ days :star: diet pepsi :star: reading a really good novel :star: having your friend call you on the phone :star: your kitty snuggling up to you :star: hearing your piggy go "oink!" :star: my teddy bear collection :star: Winnie the Pooh :star: pens with purple ink in them :star: movies that...

I am sad because I had a panic attack

I am happy because most of my day was really good

I'm proud of myself today because I exercised!!

Really happy for a change!!

Feeling really happy for a change...

Gonna enjoy myself!!! So happy!! Have the stereo on!! Watch a movie later, call some friends up!!

For me BUS is mood altering!

It makes me happy!

True BUSaholic!!!

I'm scared to go to grp therapy. Scared of what it will do to me. Look what one session is doing to me now...

I invited you over here for supper, and now I don't know if it's such a good idea. At the time I was feeling OK, now I'm not, so I'm afraid we will get into a fight or something. I will be ultra sensitive, feeling depressed like I am, and any nit pick thingy thing you say will hurt and I will react....