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it's now become fairly major as today i was logged out almost every time i clicked on a link.

take care all,
mage

i keep getting logged out. not sure why. sometimes if i hit submit after writing a post, i get asked for my username and password again. other times i click on a link, and i get taken back to the index in non-logged-in mode.

anybody out there know what's going on?

thanks. take care all,
mage

please talk to me. are you angry with me?

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mage

i fucking hate those people. i really do. what's it to them anyway? not like it's any of their fucking business.


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mage

"it's absolutely fine by me."

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"you're not weird. i want you to feel welcomed, not alienated"

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mage

ditto what Say said. make sure you get support while you're going through this though.

take care,
mage

is there a college or university near you? almost all universities have some kind of gltb society that can provide support and maybe a chilled out and safe place to hang out. a lot of places also have gltb crisis/counselling lines, so if you feel really down, maybe you could call one of those if you...

i wish i could make you understand. i know i can't. i'm so mixed up -- i can't tell whether i'm the screwed up one or they are or you are. i don't know what i should feel anymore -- whether i should trust them or not. i don't know what "should" means anymore. they matter to me, i matter to them. tha...

i'm scared.

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mage

"i do love you, i really do. you can trust me. i promise."

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mage

"i'm so sorry. i'd never hurt you"

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mage

wish i could cry for real. i'm so confused.


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i'm afraid this isn't going to work. shit. love's not enough. you're not a moron -- why did you act like one? i don't understand. i don't know how to find a way out. i know you are going to try to reassure me as you have before. i know what you're going to say. and i just don't know what to believe ...

confused.

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i don't understand what you want. do you love me? -- are you angry with me? i'm so scared of losing you. -- you were being so selfish. can't you see that this isn't the time to be throwing a temper tantrum like a little child because you don't get your holiday?! -- you're a star. thanks for everythi...

unfocussed sadness.

nervous. jittery. a bit edgy.


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if you need a definite answer to the confidentiality question, you could jsut phone the GP/doc's practice and ask what the law is where you is and what the practice policy is.

take care .

mage

icky.
and tired and vulnerable.

been feeling fat lately.


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can i have a hug?

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do you love me? i'm scared.

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i don't want to be here. i want out. i feel isolated and superfluous here.

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mage

unwanted. useless. confused. guilty. scared. so so alone.


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