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i wondered if any of you have recieved help for this? i tried talking to my CPN about it but she either doesnt know much about it or doesnt think i have a serious enough problem to warrent helping. the reason i do it is to stop the scary/bad thoughts in my head, although occasionally i do it without...

:purpstar: use other support sites and online diaries to vent and for support :purpstar: do some art :purpstar: read a safe book :purpstar: use the vast list of coping strategies (once I've printed it out) :purpstar: look at my happy box :purpstar: look at pictures of the kitten I'm getting (Yay) :p...

fuck you! I'm not taking my fucking pills and I dont care that fucking cut AGAIN!!! what more do you expect of me, really? dont fucking expect me to talk to you after you were a huge asshole and just fuck off!!

I dont care about consequences, i dont fucking care anymore!

Why couldnt you just change my medication you f*cking as$hole!!! I hate you so f*cking much!! Why wont you help me?? I dont understand why nobody is listening to me, especially you!! Dont I deserve to be helped? You say therapy will help, F*CK therapy!! If it was going to help dont you think it woul...

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want to be here >

right now I'm here..



dont know where I want to be.

right now I'm lost here >



I'd like to be here >

I've been avoiding this topic for the entire time its been around. I always keep ODing as an option for when things get too hard. for me ODing has never been about dying, just hurting myself in another way to SI. I cant count the times I've ODed but everytime I take one and I'm being taken away in a...

im worried about my big secret im worried that I'll never get over the PTSD etc
im worried I'll never be healthy and fit again

I've been suffering from PTSD symptoms for the past year and a half. It was brought on by traumatic events I experienced in a psychiatrist hospital over a period of 9 months. I get bad dreams most nights and flashbacks most days. I've only just started talking to my therapist about it and havent act...

I see a therapist but have only just recently mentioned all of this. Nothing she's said or done so far has been particularly helpul, I guess I should just outright ask her how to cope with this stuff and then maybe we'll get a chance to work on it. I also see my psychiatrist in just over a month, so...

yeah both my parents know. they found out by accident when I was about 10 so I started hiding it and they thought I'd stopped. Then they found out again when I was about 14/15. I'm 21 now and dont live with them anymore so they dont talk to me about it.

im worried I might be gay and that I'm living a lie by being with my boyfriend. I dont know if I could ever tell him though because it would break his heart and I *do* really love him.

I've tried using music sometimes, like blasting it in my headphones so it drowns out everything. I just have to be careful what music i choose because theres alot of stuff that triggers me. the problem with talking to people is the only people I have to talk to are always at work when I'm home alone...

I seriously need some input here. I'm really struggling at the moment with all three of those things and I dont know how to cope. I've never really talked about this stuff until recently and its just making everything worse.

so how do you cope with bad memories/dreams/flashbacks?

I like reading books by Jacqueline (sp?) Wilson for something 'light' and my favourite ever author is Francesca Lia Block.

Oh and I love 'Speak' as well.

thanks everyone. the party didnt go amazingly but I survived the whole night. I did alot of people watching and then one of my friends noticed I was down and came and tried to cheer me up. I really really hate drunk people. Because people know i was in hospital recently they all started coming out w...

I was looking around and couldnt find anything on coping with parties or crowds. just looking for some tips and advice because I'm going to a party tonight and theres going to be 40+ people. I'm terrified. I always end up feeling bad and theres nowhere for me to escape to. Its my boyfriends party so...

my room right now would be red and black. the windows would be painted shut so theres no air getting into the place. the furniture would be really hard and square so it has jaggy edges. it would be a huge room and have very little in it. what I'd prefer would be purple and lilac (like my bedroom is)...

writing a list is a great idea. I'll do that thanks

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