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why can't I find a part time job?, why can't I stop hurting myself?, why can't I feel better? why can't I let anyone in? I just want a hug from someone who really cares.

I just wanted to post to say thanks for asking this question. I haven't attempted su nor have I od'ed, but I have kept 'ODing' in my back pocket for the time when I might use it. But now I don't know if that's the best way, there doesn't really seem to be any "best" way. . . but thank you to all of ...

nr- you think that you can ignore me all semester because you found another person to indulge you in your selfish-egotistical ways, and then you two have a fight and quit your friendship -- or whatever weird relationship you two had -- and you think you can suddenly pull me out of your "old clothes"...

I just wanted to let you know I read, and it makes me sad that family can't support you wanting to feel better. You are important, and deserve to be happy, and I am glad that you are doing what you need to do to feel better. Good luck
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writing stuff about what's bothering you, SI, etc., is usually a therapeutic thing to do b/c it gets thoughts and things out on paper -- a different outlet for those feelings that make you SI. So I find it helpful, and I think only good can come from it.
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oops, it appeared twice.

I kind of know what you mean. But I'm pushing my "friends" away, one by one. I'm getting a new apartment next year, and I think I'm going to get a kitten. Seems like pets love you no matter what, and they are your very own fuzzy thing. Maybe consider? (unless allergies get in the way) just a suggest...

I HATE THIS STUPID SCHOOL! DAMN IMMATURE IDIOTS EVERYWHERE! ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* a surprise, slobbery dog-kiss when you feel blah and down * I've been in bed all day, down, and I hear my dog clicking his nails through the house, until he appears in front of me w/ his squeaky, doggy newspaper wagging his whole body * waking up and realizing I slept for more solid hours than my ...

I'm beginning to wonder if this is just kind of the way of the psychiatrist? He gives me meds, talks to me like he's in a huge hurry, doesn't seem to interested, but my psychologist is so great and patient and totally opposite. I talked to her about him (they work in the same building) and she said ...

I have dreams about killing myself and being hurt, etc., and I write them down after I have them in my journal. It helps to get the images out onto paper. A dream is usually something in your subconscious telling you it's there. My psychologist helps me with my dreams sometimes -- those dream books ...

*SI/ SU* Hi, this is my first real posting, I just joined, so sorry if I'm not doing it right yet. Anyway, this section has been really interesting to read about. I can't relate to the really violent, movie-like images some people get, but I do occasionally get images of how I've killed myself, or h...

At first I slept more, then I couldn't sleep at all, now I'm on prescribed sleeping meds. with my antidepressants and so I'm sleeping a bit better. Overall, I never sleep as much as I want to or when I want to. Sucks.