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I wish I'd never been born

I can't honestly say I have managed to 'not' when I 'wanted' to and thus ended up SI'ing in the end. 'But' ,,, what I do that often works for me is to remove myself from the house entirely,,,go out into my yard where I have my gardens filled with flowers. I then pick some of them, make myself a litt...

Dad,,,,,how I wish you didn't drink so much,,,,,it makes me so so sad and scared for you.

I don't have friends either,,,lots of people I know that I say 'hi' to and maybe talk with for a few moments,,,but no one I can call when I so desperately need a 'real' friend. I try so hard to be nice to others,,,,I wish I knew what is wrong with me,,,,it is so lonely and depressing living like thi...

Everytime you scream the cruel, insulting and degrading things to me you take that much more off of me. What will you do when I am all used up?

SCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEECCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHH!!!!!

,,,ummmm thanks

Hi,,,just wanted to say I understand what you mean. I tell no one in real life that I cut,,,besides my T,,,so sometimes I literally 'ache' with the need to have someone to talk with when I know I'm going to cut. It is really pathetic to have to look for some friend online to talk with when you are i...

I wish I had made better choices.

I wish they would all stop drinking too much

I wish none of the bad things had happened

I wish they were not ill

I wish 'everyone' would find some peace of mind

I can not stand thinking about the two of you!!!!! I hold such anger and loathe for you and the things you did to your kids!!!! You never should have been parents!!!!! You damage these kids and now that they are grown so many other people are left to deal with the mess they are because of the both o...

I can not stand thinking about the two of you!!!!! I hold such anger and loathe for you and the things you did to your kids!!!! You never should have been parents!!!!! You damage these kids and now that they are grown so many other people are left to deal with the mess they are because of the both o...

Hi and Welcome Hugs to you :) First please don't think you sound 'stupid',,because you don't at all. Expressing your thoughts and feelings is never a stupid thing,,,it is a brave and important thing. I feel badly and really understand how you must have felt with your T 'comparing' your scars to anot...

Sometimes I give into the urge,,sometimes I don't. Last time instead
of reaching for my blade I just dragged my fingernail down the entire
length of my arm,,,for that time it was good enough and in the end I was glad I didn't cut afterall.

Thanks everyone for taking the time to respond to my post. Means a lot.

Hi,,,I'm just looking for other's opinions please. I have been to several doctors about my problems in the past,,,some therapists were alright,,,some lousy,,,some I never gave a fair chance to. So anyway,,,I often wonder,,,just how does someone know when it is 'time' to seek professional help? I'm n...

a sky full of stars
a golden sparkling sunset on the lake
the smell of Spring in the air
words from a friend that help heal your heart

good idea to post nice things

Thank you so very much for getting drunk again and spending more time with your bar buddies instead of us. Thank you so very much for yelling at me again and blaming me for everything wrong in this world. Thank you so much for making Christmas Eve so much fun *sigh*

Okay you Big *ucking A-hole! You must get some kind of 'high' being such a mean controlling bully all of the time. You're a damn drunk and pothead and I don't believe or want to hear your 'sorrys' anymore because they mean nothing because you will do it again and again!!!! If you had any idea how *u...

I feel bad now I didn't think to wish something for others,,,so I wish for
Health, Happiness & Peace of Mind for All.

I wish I didn't worry so much.
I wish I knew how to be happy and content.
I wish there were not so many sick people in my family.
I wish I had worthwhile things to do with my life.
I wish,,,I wish,,,I wish.

I Wish,,,I had made better choices in the past I Wish,,,I had a job I loved to go to everyday I Wish,,,my family was healthier,,,physically and mentally I Wish,,,I had friends I Wish,,,I didn't SI yesterday I Wish,,,I had my own cottage on the lake to go to whenever I wanted to and could stay there ...