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~ i don't want anymore scars ~i want to find a coping mechanism with a feeling of releif that last long term ~i want to be able to look my mom in the eyes and tell her that i have stopped for real ~i want to grow up to be an actress ~i don't want to worry about what to wear to cover me up ~i don't ...

:lol: thanx for replyin bak ppl. it really helped but i still cant see why i should stop.. it is like impossible for me to, cuz it feels soo good, and when i see the blood running down my arm i feel calm....my only escape ~lauren queen of darkness *How will you know if I am hurting if you can't see...

i want to cry i really do but i cant do it so these are all the tears i want to cry.... :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :c...

i got the idea to cut when i was stressed out because all of my other friends were cutting and i wanted them to stop. i got so stressed out i cracked and had to let out the frustration, and anger i felt. i couldnt tell my friends i was mad at them cuz i cant let out any emotion, its like a wall i ca...

i wish i could feel
i wish i could stop
i wish my life wasnt abusive
i wish someone anyone cared
i wish my parents loved me
i wish i wasnt so confused
i wish i wish......
i wish all of my wishes could come tru......

god why do things have to be so hard why cant one of my wishes come true?? sob sob sob

i know what you mean i have had a really bad childhood and i try to block it out but these scenes just go over in my head and i cant control them and when they are going on the urge to cut gets stronger and stronger and i......give into it :cry: and they just wont stop and i have tried to stop SIing...

i am 13 years old, and i feel like my whole world is crashing down, if cutting myself makes me feel better then why stop? It seems like i can focus better and like i can show everyone exactly how i feel, i write so much better too- its like everything is amplified...why quit? why quit something tha...

* SPOILER SI * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * it finally hits me when i cant feel the blade in my skin that i scared of myself, of what i might do. * * * * * * * * * * * it hurts to cry to show emotion i just need a shoulder to cry on :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :( :( :( :oops: :oops: :cry: :cry: :cry: :...

i cant stop cutting and i just want to get out some!! some things i tell myself not to cry over but everything is so complicated literally