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Putting this in the same thread, same urge different day, still "Before" though so that's something I guess. Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? stress on top of stress on top of not knowing. I think just getting close to doing it makes it seem that much more like...

As far as slogging through it- yeah that seems to be the only sollution. Unfortunately we won't know about the chromosome tests for a few more weeks and that's a lot of slogging.

Thanks for replying. I think things will improve once we get some more answers. I mean if the answers are bad then things will go downhill for a bit but in the long run if we know what we are dealing with at least we will have some dirrection to go in. We could work through the feelings and move on,...

Ok I looked up some stuff about Fragile X on the internet and read it.

I cried a bit and prayed a bit and feel somewhat better. Not sure how long it will last I still want to cut but I don't feel as numb.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? I'm depressed and don't know what to do with those feelings. What has brought me to this point? that's a really huge question. Short answer- I feel helpless to protect my children from whatever is causing their nuerological problems. Everything is just piling up...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It won't. Ultimately I can't do anything about the situation. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I might be less distracted, I might be better able to cope. how do i want to feel abo...

Why do you visit before and after? I visit when I'm at a place where I am just about ready to SI. What do you get out of it? It gives me something to do instead of cutting, it slows me down and makes me think about what I'm going to do. What prompts you to think posting might be a good idea? i.e. w...

Yeah I used to do that a lot. Drawing on jeans was kind of good too. I don't know why it works, maybe it helps you focus, maybe it's a somewhat simalar action to SIing. At any rate it's great you were able to find a good nonharmful coping mechanism. And thanks for posting this, I had forgotten about...

Yeah I used to do that a lot. Drawing on jeans was kind of good too. I don't know why it works, maybe it helps you focus, maybe it's a somewhat simalar action to SIing. At any rate it's great you were able to find a good nonharmful coping mechanism. And thanks for posting this, I had forgotten about...

Oh actually there is one thing that has helped me a bit. It's something my doctor told me. He said that when it feels like I can't breath I should remember that if I really couldn't breath I would be passed out after a very short time. That doesn't sound like an espessially helpful thing to focus on...

Yes, I have problems with both. I've only been to the doctor about the anxiety (because I was having an anxiety attack and thought I was dying ) He put me on a low dose of buspar which helps..when I take it. No real advise or anything because my anxiety is not really under control.

Spray on liquid bandages are great for covering large areas like that. Do they have that there? Bandaide makes one and I'm sure a few other companies do as well. Any kind of liquid bandage will work though I like the spray on. I tend to have a simalar m.o. and I use the spray stuff or just leave it ...

yes, late night is the hardest I think. Maybe because there is less going on to keep my mind off of things. Hope you are ok.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? How do I feel right now? How will I feel when I am hurting myse...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? if hurting myself s...

Go to the post and highlight the questions by holding your left mouse button down and scrolling over them then right click and hit "copy" then go to your own reply to this thread and right click again and hit "paste".

Thanks for the replies, I tried to clear my head and ended up asleep which was actually a good thing, a nap helped a bit. I have a headache from keeping my jaw clenched so I'm going to try and relax a bit more. I'm embarrassed that I got so worked up before. It's funny that I listed things such as c...

I did some cleaning which helped momentarily. I'm going to answer the second set of questions. Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Several conversations about the same subject. Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Sort of. N...

I think what I need is something calming but at the same time something that keeps my attention. Like knitting or something. (I don't have the things on hand to knit so that's out for now but I'll pick some up asap because I remember knitting being calming in the past.)

I've tried meditation in the past, I have a hard time doing it as a methood of calming down when I am already upset because I can't seem to stop thinking and clear my mind. (So I guess I'm not terribly good at meditating.) I did take my anti-anxiety medicine which I hadn't today and that is helping ...