bus

I - i don't know if i want to be with you. i love you so much that it hurts me to be apart, that the more we are apart the more that i hate you for not wanting to be near me. i hate your friends. i hate your slutty friends. i hate your ex-girlfriends. i want you to leave me as i can't leave you. K -...

i - you hurt me so much and i've told you, and you've offered to talk about it, but we didn't because there isn't anything more that i haven't said already. i wish you would just 'get it' and then tell me the things that i need to hear. that you love you, that you don't care about her, that you don'...

From D - I love you and I'm proud of you

From M - I won't go to Mints anymore

From I - I won't hurt you anymore, no one can take the place of you, i won't go to P anymore, you are so much better than her, i want to move out with you, i'll make more time to just 'talk', i believe in you

I - I lied to you when I left. and I am SO sorry. I love you so much. M - I do care about you - more then you know, more then I let myself know. S - I hate Raj, I am so glad hes getting engaged, i wish you could see what an ass he really is D - I hate you for giving me a knife and making me think th...

I hate that I want to cry, and that I could cry, yet I can't because he has friends over, and even if I didn't, he doesn't like it.
This is my substitute.

I wish that I had gone to class I wish that I had tried I wish that I had someone to talk to about everything I wish that he would care more I wish that he wouldn't hit me I wish that I hadn't lost my job I wish that I hadn't spent my money foolishly I wish that I had more courage I wish that I was ...

I wish I knew what I really wanted
I wish I wasen't always so afraid
I wish that I could express how I feel
I wish I knew how I felt
I wish that I was strong

I wish that I didn't have to make so many wishes.

Plantt, first off thanks for replying. It means a lot that you took the time for me. I realize that because I'm afraid about the amount of time that I've gone without SI doesn't mean that the next time I will it will be as bad as I think. In fact when I'm thinking a little more rationally I feel as ...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Initially I think I'll feel better. I won't be constantly worried about what it will be like when I finally do. I've gone 2 months without doing it and I've only have a few urges. This is the first time that I've been allone for a long time...

I'm just confused and don't know what to do.

I'm not sure what else to do but cry.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll feel less anxious. I might be able to communicate how much it hurts, how much he's hurt me. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it would bring a sense of calmness in my otherwise ...

just needed to get out a few tears . . .

I do that all the time. Its such a pain. I just finished fighting with my boyfriend because he was going away for a day to visit his best friend for his birthday. I'm not too upset about it, i've just kept all these little things inside and he was just the first one around for me to explode at. I ha...

I wish I knew what to do
I wish I wasen't confused
I wish the answers were clear
I wish that the answer was easy
I wish that I wasen't like this
I wish I could make up my mind

I'm proud of you for finally admiting to it. Its the first step in working to get better. I've gone through the process, and I want you to know that I'm willing to talk whenever you want. PM me or add me to msn, just know that I'm here.

Meagan

I know it's just something small, but it's always been one of my favorite quotes:

If you want to be happy, be.

Let us know how it all turns out.
I love the idea, I should work on one for myself

Meagan

fist off, welcome to BUS :moove: and I really do hope that it helps you overcome some of the problems you may be having about your boyfriend, I know what you're going through, and I promise you that you'll feel so much better once you don't feel like you're hiding it anymore. Also, if he really care...

Thank you so much for writing. No one seemed to reply, and I was really starting to feel as though no one cared. Its good to be proven wrong. I'm happy to know that I'm not allone, sometimes I feel like the only one in the world going through these things, feeling, or not feeling the things that I d...

:lblstar: I wish that I was more dedicated :lblstar: I wish that I had real friends :lblstar: I wish that I could cry :lblstar: I wish that people would understand :lblstar: I wish that I was no longer taken for granted :lblstar: I wish that people wouldn't hurt me anymore :lblstar: I wish that I wa...

I only wish that I actually could.

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