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I feel so very, very lonely.

my brother~ :argggh: u r such a selfish arrogant twat! out of all the brothers in this world why did i end up with u?! do u know hwo much ur words hurt me? can u see my eyes glaze over cos i try 2 shut them out? you tell me everyday that im pathetic, that im a bitch and that im selfish- well look in...

i can't vote cos my feeling change. sometimes i do want 2 stop and sometimes i don't want 2 cos i can't see the harm in doing it 2 myself. also, im addicted 2 SI, i enjoy it.

iain~ i love u, im here 4 u because u keep me going. i want 2 break up because i am so dependant on u but i want 2 stay 2gether more because im so dependant on u and because i love u. don't hurt me, don't leave me 2 be eaten by the demons in my mind. but also, don't love me, hate me and leave me 4 s...

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cos i thought that if i didn't do it badly enough then the dr wouldn't take me seriously the next day :oops: so i held on and didn't do it at all. thats not rite really is it? :cry: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx So you thought he/she wouldn't take you seriously if you did or didn't SI? i thought if i didn't SI b...

cos i thought that if i didn't do it badly enough then the dr wouldn't take me seriously the next day so i held on and didn't do it at all. thats not rite really is it?

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i thought of the sadness in my boyfriends eyes when he finds out ive SIed again. also the thought of lying to my mum if she asks if i hav SIed and the fear of having to talk about it to anyone.

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Talking to the psychiatrist and psychologist afterwards was humiliating, being treat like a moron... :roll: tell me about it. i know its not nearly that same but that happened 2 me after i went 2 hospital 4 SI-ing 2 badly (also a humilating, guilt-inducing and traumatic experience people- dont try ...

perhaps u could write him a letter? write all the things u wish u could hav said then, when its nice and windy, burn it and scatter it in2 the wind 4 him 2 find

ladies, this is a coping idea jst 4 us, im not sure if it works so i didnt feel urgy b4....

give urself a bikini wax! it hurts but its constructive and ur gonna feel all sexy after it! thats gotta b gd rite?

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as always, the stories on here r so very moving. i still struggle with SU thoughts everyday and its esp harder when im like this (im home alone 2nite). luftballoons~ i admire ur attempt 2 trully say everything, all the gory details, cos ppl need 2 understand the consequences of their actions. u r ve...

i have definitely flirted with SU but hav never gone all the way- and im glad now ive read these stories. i did almost OD once but i stopped myself b4 i took 2 many pills. id never wanna imagine my mums face waking up (if i actually did) from an OD. i still remember the look on her face when she had...