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Nervous

If you do not shut up then I may scream. You're really pissing me off with you excessively loud breathing and your groaning. And what the hell do you think you're doing falling asleep at work?!

Yeah, if you can try and get it straight in your head what things you want to say it will be easier. Don't try and talk to them when they are busy or on their way somewhere etc. Maybe try an evening when you are all in and say you want to talk to them about something. You could explain that it's har...

I find structure in a day can help. It could be making sure you eat at particular times in the day, or go for a walk every afternoon etc. Also, I'm sure the rest of your family would love it if you cleaned the house. Maybe you could have a set day each week you did it? I'm a bit geeky so this might ...

Fat. Ugly.

Exhausted.

~~ED~~


Part of me wants to go back to when I was messed up, I was thin then. I know it was awful and I know how much it hurt but right now all I can think about is how I was thin.

*PMs ok*

I'm proud of myself because I'm on self destruct but I've noticed and I haven't SIed, even though it's been stuck in my head

You had to have known about my SI-ing, you never said anything, you never tried to help me. I'm getting through it but no thanks to any of you. You didn't care enough to acknowledge the darkness that I was living. I've forgiven my friends, but it'll be hard to forgive you, maybe I never will.

M; I'm sorry I treated you the way I did, it wasnt about you, you're a beautiful, talented young women who has great potential, and not just academically. I love you. J; I'm sorry I stole your secrets and offered you nothing in return but lies and confusion. I'm sorry I didnt treat you the way I sho...

You know too much so everytime you do anything wrong I try to break what we used to have. I made you up to be someone amazing in my head but you're selfish and you never see when I'm hurting and that makes me hate you. Even though I'm not showing you my pain you;re supposed to see it, you should kno...

[si]

I cut worse than ever before last night and I'm supposed to be getting better

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I dont like that he said he wont sponsor me, he knows how much this means to be and he knows how hard i'm finding it to get the money. It doesnt have to be alot...

I'm scared of people I care about getting hurt.

I'm scared when I can see they will get hurt but know that I cant say anything

Could you talk to your counsellor about what sort of things they would have to tell people? I've always interpretated it as they would have to tell someone if you were SU or SI was exceptionally bad and potentially life threatening.