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Today I had egg fried rice for lunch and didn't freak out

Anxious
Stressed
Trapped

*Lang* * * You stupid selfish fucking bitch. How dare you throw my money down the drain without making any effort to keep warm? You're wandering around the fucking house wearing a cardi and a long sleeved tshirt. Of course you're not fucking warm enough. You stupid fucking bitch. How dare you be so ...

Fuck off. I hope you don't come back after Christmas. I can't keep doing this. I exist. I live here. Stop treating me as if you don't notice me/I don't matter. Just please don't come back. I hate how you're making me feel.

Left out.

Kind of empty... Like I'm being defeated... Like giving up...

Have I upset you?

Cold
Shakey
Emotional
Sad

I hate having to speak to you once a week and have you go on and on and on about her... You never ask how *I* am... You knew H was up this weekend and you didn't even ask how it was/what we did. Just disown me. We both know you want to.

lonely

I made a doctors appointment

a bit anxious and on edge

anxious

cold
sad
lonely

I need you to show me that you aren't leaving me behind. I need to know that just because you aren't here you are still thinking of me. I need to be kept involved in your life.

I don't want to be left behind.

Frustrated.

Look at the really long list of ways to cope I think reading it might even count as a way to cope!

http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=34500

I also think at some point it's good to look at why you si, what triggers you etc

Frustrated