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I've come to like not having you here. We're much more stable. The little ones miss you, but frankly, given time, they'd come to like it. We're much calmer now, much less stressed. Perhaps it's me getting used to being me; perhaps it's the lack of chaos that you bring with you. Whatever it is, I lik...

Our lives together will never be the same. You've shown me what I mean to you -- what I don't mean to you. You've shown me how much my opinion, my fear and pain, don't matter. I find you pathetic and small and a poor excuse for a husband and father. Don't plan on us being the happy family we once we...

i wish i wasn't such a fucking poor mother that my children hug me one moment and then do something hurtful to me the next, day after day, night after night i wish someone, somewhere, would do something that they thought might be nice for me i wish my husband would decide that his family was more im...

You'll never know what this is doing to me. Part of me hopes you'll open your eyes and try to see someday. Another part doesn't want the risk of you telling me again just how wrong it is to feel the way I do. If you wonder why everything is different after this, just remember all the things you didn...

Hi. There's something I don't understand.










nevermind.

Why? Because you're leaving me and even though you know I think it's the wrong thing you've never asked why. You ask me if I'm OK. What do you expect me to say? I say "no" and you change the subject. I say nothing and you change the subject. Do you want me to say yes to make you feel better? I tried...

I think it may be over for us. I'd like to think of trusting you again some day, but I'm not sure that day will ever come. It's been too many things too often. You have too many things that are a higher priority than I am. I don't want to fall somewhere behind your career and your hobbies. I don't w...

I don't know why I sit here. I'm looking for something. Something that will tell me all is OK. That I am OK. I don't know what I expect or want to find. I know it seems fruitless -- it most likely is. I just want To Be.

I have no idea how to take you up on your offer of friendship. You don't understand what it means to me. To have someone who actually cares -- and to not be able to explain the reality of my days. It's so nice to know there <i>is</i> someone out there.

Now that you've made your decision, I get to make one, too. Here's mine: to hell with you. Years ago, we decided to live with each other's quirks. Nope, I'm not perfect. Neither are you, you bastard. You want a loving wife? Better plan on finding another after I'm gone. To hell with your wants for l...

would you just hold me. hold me and let me weep. don't tell me it's going to be alright. don't shhhhh me. just let me weep. hold me while i shake. hold me safe and tight. i don't often get to feel safe. hold me and just be here. don't tell me of your troubles during the day as if someone not liking ...

oh really? everybody is somebody? great phrase. very catchy. i can see it on the posters, the postcards, ink pens, key chains, t-shirts. people everybody is somebody, except when they're not and a platitude for a slogan doesn't change that.

I think I finally understand. In that, I'm glad. I will work to be the calm you need. I will work hard, but I am not perfect. I love you too much not to do all I can for you. It is what I must do. I know this is a long road. We'll travel it together. And, I know that for me it will get worse before ...

I wish...
I still loved and trusted him
someone irl would tell me I'm important to them
someone would accept my kids and I and love us

Name: wall Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: i'm trying to reduce that which induces my desire to si, so in a roundabout way, yes If so what is your motivation: i need to be a better mother for my children Favorite coping skills: besides si? sitting in a quiet room relaxing, talking mys...

i am... lonely frightened wary i am not... beyond reach angry controlling i feel... confused uncertain numb i want... a hug a friend to be seen i need... air ambient temperature i have... all i need it easy too many blessings to count i love... my sons -- though i have no idea what love ireally s i ...

I don't know how you can say those things with a straight face. Are you as much of a fraud as you seem or are you clueless? Have you fooled even yourself? I am truly amazed that you would define success as the ability to identify those people who can help you and cater to them while ignoring or step...

I: I'm so sorry. There's no excuse for my behavior. I am under stress, but that certainly doesn't make my actions anywhere near right. I am very sorry. H: Please don't do this to our family. Please don't let your desire for your personal pleasure ruin everything. We can't do this; we shouldn't try. ...

you have no idea what it all meant to me. you never asked. maybe you're above it; maybe you don't know where to start; maybe you don't care. i feel alone and unwanted. i have no strength to pull myself up and try again. i need help -- someone to reach out to me. you act like you care. if you're wait...

just lonely and afraid