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hey, i still sleep with a teddy bear, love sanrio and find myself drifting to any toys in whatever store i'm in. you don't have to give up all childlike things to grow up. i figure as long as i'm paying the bills i'm allowed to have fitzwilliam w. bear sleep with me
~alegria

I just read bach_player's post about this and checked my junk box and there they all were. Just thought i mention that thread here so maybe you all could check there.
~alegria

Me too me too! only for me it's been going on for a couple weeks at least.
~alegria

That's a cool idea. Never thought of it.

Sometimes i find that if i catch the urge before it gets too bad that popping something really sour into my mouth works. Don't know if it would work for anyone else and it doesn't even work for me if i'm feeling tooooo bad.
~alegria

I guess i feel like i should preface this with the fact that i'm not just talking about one slip but a series. On Wednesday i slipped and cut myself everyday after till today when i've decided to try to stop again. have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes ...

Someone:You fucking betrayed me. I hate myself for not being able to get over it but i can never totally trust you again. I want to but i can't. So it hurts that i now i have someone who loves me and i can't go back to you. You left me sobbing on the street, knowing i wouldn't go inside when i was t...

Thanks.
~alegria

I joined a couple days ago and i still can't post. Can you help? Thanks
~alegria

Why don't MY feelings count?! sorry this is going to be long :argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh: :argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh: :argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh: :argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh: :argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::argggh::ar...

I'm back. This is the only place i can let go. :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :...

cuz i didn't have a good reason to:(

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i love you. i am sorry i took so much and never gave you anything. you are so much to me and i will never be able to tell you. i'm sorry for everything and for not being clear with you and lying to myself because i cannot fucking do this! I cannot sit there and watch you with your gf and act like i'...

i love you so fucking much and it hurts so sharply not to be able to tell you. i'm sorry :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :...

i promised my friend i wouldn't while i was staying with him.

Hey, i wanted to say thank you for this thread. It was sort of just what i needed. For the last little while i have not been able to get the thought of od-ing out of my head. I feel really stupid cuz i dont' want to die i just want to mess myself up but now i realize that after reading this i would ...

NOW YOU OFFER YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON? NOW THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO COMMIT TOO MUCH?! TOO FUCKING LATE BASTARD. :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :...

I feel that way right now too. And i am resisting attempts to make me feel better, i don't know why. I try to feel bad but i can't even do that. And i feel like i shouldn't SI unless i feel really bad so i just feel empty. Sorry i don't have anything better to say. Just wanted you to know that you'r...

I couldn't figure out why i wanted to so i did the fifteen minute thing till i felt better. Haven't done it in 10 days.