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* How will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The situation remains the same but I replace the tension with guilt. * what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It brings a feeling that I'm in control and will lessen the voices. * how d...

Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do ...

Damn.
tried my best but only put it off.
Next time is a new start though.

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel a release of tension but the situation itself doesn't change what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take...

I'm worried that they are all laughing at me

im afraid i will wake up in the past

fuck off and die.
im fucked anyway so i might as well say it. i dont think about you like family any more. youre just a cunt.

I've convinced myself I lke it.

The voices thing - I didnt tell anyone for years. And yes, they did try to medicate me at first to see what helped. But now I have the meds as back up for if everything else fails. I know what its like to hear them. There's docs and nurses these days who can help you cope with the voices in differen...

No, I never told my parents and never will. They obviously noticed when I was young - say under 16 that I would have bruises and cuts, but as a boy thats easily put down to 'boy stuff' :-? Now its been years since I lived at home and theres simply no need to tell. It's none of their business. Just b...

I regret that I didn't die when I did it. that's not the same as saying I'm off to jump off a cliff by the way :D My view is that once I'm dead I'm dead - there will be nothing - no feelings, no emotions, no thoughts. So any guilt about making other people feel bad (which is their responsability not...

hmmmm... re-read most of the thread and its no good - it just makes me feel more like ODing, not less. Makes me angry as well - as if people think that hearing I will upset my family or have to put up with needles again will stop me - if those are big reasons for not doing it then my pain cant be th...

Charcoal shake, IVs that hurt, heart monitors and no sleep and pain pain pain, disgusted comments from nurses and doctors, no dignity with full view bed-pans, distressing for people you know, maybe lose your freedom and get sectioned, maybe that loses you your job, your house, your partner. So what?...

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I want to be in physical fights.
I want to hurt other people and be hurt myself.