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I don't understand why. I never have understood why. I always knew your relationships were different. I've never had the cool mum and dad, the parents you were ok with, the parents where you were able to bring someone home to. Instead I get you. You and him. You're fine, you always have been mummy,...

invalid.... fake to myself and other people.

im so glad you know now. i keep wanting to talk to you about it but im not really sure how to re-bring the conversation up. i cant believe you know. i know you already knew, but the fact i've actually told you, thats a big wow. you're the only person in my life who knows. i mean like, knew well as ...

i love you and can't stop thinking about you and all the good times we've had together. i really don't want you to leave me. i'm terrifed of change and what will happen when you aren't there anymore. you can't go. we need eachother, you always said you were going to be around. please don't go. i can...

* Using the first few sheets out of a paper pad, or using an exercise book for the first time when its all new. * Getting post/text messages/phone calls when you don't expect them. * Making someone smile and seeing them happy. * Spur of the moment fun stuff. * Cornflakes when you first put the milk ...

As I just wanted to for no reason and I knew deep down it was silly. So went and sat in the same room as my brother and occupied myself with him instead.

And it will be a month in 3 days.

feel so jealous right now. i hate it in me. normally, im never jealous, im not a green eyed person or anything. well its not really jealousy, more annoyance. at you. just wish you'd quit it, yeah, you're mates but you're not that good mates- are you? stop acting like the bearer of good news, we all...

because it creates more problems, and isn't worthwhile, or effective in the long run.

i'm better than that...

[feeling positive today]

not ok. why is it always me? why am i always the one who has to do everything, be the nice one, do everything, spend my money, go down, do everything. am i that much of a walkover? too nice. thats my problem. im gona stop being nice, stop being the nice one. im always scared of offending people and...

hes gone.

im sorry. i'm not part of your relationship, i know that, but why dont you two? constantly, for the last 4 months ive been the confideant in between you. esspecially you sarah. you have told me about all the crap which you've had about dan, and expect me not to tell him. ive kept your secrets for y...

Its now gone half 9 so here we go again.... Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i want to so i am real. im me again. if im gona bleed, im me again. what has bought me to this point? not feeling myself because im terrified of any form of going outside, and thinking...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i wont feel scared. i will feel more real because ive seen blood and bits of me. i dont feel like me at the moment and if i cut it will make me more me. it will stop me from being scared. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? wha...

youve made me feel so bad and its not even your fault. im not jealous of you or anything, not really, just sorta, invalidated. i dont know and im being such a bitch about this i know i am. i know im a bitch. you have a dad. he loves you. mine doesnt. hes not seen you for a couple of days, big big d...

I don't have automatic log in and its been happening with me as well. All of the topics are being marked as read, and that there are no new posts when I click on the forum links directly after I've logged on.

why? why do we have to always end up like this. fighting. why cant we just sort everything out without killing eachother. why am i saying we its not even we. you. why is everything you do surounded by violence? everything you do, everytime you need something you resort to it. why cant you just talk...

it's hard for me to get in a pool and just relax. I have an urge to swim laps. Same, it doesn't feel right if I'm not training whilst in a swimming pool. I've always found swimming a really big release, I've turned up so many times in a bad place, then after the two hours felt better in myself. Wat...

I have done too. Several times. Like other people have put, you can try and replicate the word else where (eg on paper) or on your body with something safe like henna. Ive written the words with my finger nails too. I also generally just try and imagine the word instead, imagine doing everything, in...