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Hi Mods,

Would you mind deleting my account please? Thanks so much!

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unbelievably lonely
teary
useless

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Why does nothing ever seem to change?

You only seem to care when it suits you, when it's easy and convenient

I don't want to leave...please don't make me

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Sometimes....I hate you.
But I don't know what I'd do without you.
I'm stuck.

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I am worried that mental illness will plague me all my life.

I am worried that you will leave and that I won't be able to blame you

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Do you love me? I am doubting it. If you do, I need you to tell me that sometimes. If you don't...well, it doesn't really bear thinking about

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afraid
lonely
unnecessary
vulnerable

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the fact that after tomorrow i will never need to see you again FILLS ME WITH JOY

YOU ARE A HORRIBLE, MEAN-SPIRITED, BITTER, PATHETIC, CONTROLLING, ANALLY-RETENTIVE BITCH

GOODBYE FOREVER. FINALLY

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twitchy
conflicted
anxious
excited
nervous
scared
hopeful
empty

bit of a mish mash eh?

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I resent it. And I could never ever tell you and I won't. But in some ways, no matter how much I get angry or hurt, you mean the world to me. Everything flips backwards for me...it's ridiculous and foolish and it hurts.
But you do all the same

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the three things i need most seem to be the things i will never, ever have

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i think...fuck...i'm not sure. but - i think i might, maybe love you. and that's the hardest thing in the world. i wish...i wish you felt the same. i wish i was someone else. _______________________________ i don't want to tell you how badly i'm feeling. it'd scare you. and i'm scared i'm making it...

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I'm so sorry. I don't remember. I'm sorry for anything, everything. I'm sorry sorry sorry. I promise it won't happen again. _______________ I wish you weren't so selfish. I wish you cared. I wish I didn't. ________________ I should be thrilled for you. But I'm not. I'm sad and I'm bitter and I'm so...

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i'm sorry that i'm jealous. truly, i am happy for you. it's just that i'm sad for myself.

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seriously, why? why why why?
you are going to get sick of the sound of your own voice, methinks.

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it seems like an option...a way of controlling something when i can't control *anything* when it seems everything is slipping away
but i'm too weak to even do that.

i feel so unnecessary

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I don't believe you. You and her...no way. Seriously. You're wasting her time and yours and the worst thing is, you'll come out of it fine all over again. I wish she would dump you...not because I'm a bitch, but because you have no idea how to treat people. _____ What is wrong? Please talk to me? Si...

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You are a BITCH. I have zero respect for you and I can't wait until I never have to see you again. ___ Thanks for taking my position into consideration - I appreciate that. But it doesn't make this any easier and I don't think you realise how hard it is. You've never been in this place. On every lev...

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lonely.
lost.
pointless
sad

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right now...i don't like my job. and i am not good at it.
but i don't feel smart enough to ever do anything much. i am so tired i'll be inadequate at anything i do.

i need to pull myself out of this.

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i hope that i can take this opportunity to do a little of something i've wanted for so long

i hope that one day i will be someone to someone

i hope that one day i will just be content.

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