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I have made a bunch of avatarsfor live journal and such. I can send a bunch in if you would like.

because I don't want to loose 41 days of no si. because it would hurt him. it would hurt my parents.

I want to si everyday. I don't beacuase I know I need to stop and I know this is not the way to cope. because it know i will lie about it and i hate lying. because it hurts other people and i dont want to hurt them.

crying dry tears,
crying without a sound...

afraid to show weakness
afraid to show emotion...

ashamed of my lack of self control
ashamed because i want everyone to see how much I suffer...

crying dry tears
crying without a sound...

its hard. it really is. and i understand that you dont want to put a friend in a difficult position. i feel the same way. bus is always an option, if you can get online. everyone is always willing to sit and talk with you if you ask for it. maybe, walking around the block, with music? happy music ma...

Hello and welcome!!!!!!! make sure you introduce yourself on the other boards too! glad you gound bus here is your welcome cow.

haven't been here in awhile. haven't cried in awhile. not crying now. i neeed to though. everything has been hell. so i am crying dry tears

Aye!! i want to join shaca... even though i don't have a cat

I wish I had never felt suicidal and I wish I could stop feeling it now i wish someone knew. I wish you were here.

myself: your stupid selfish bitch. get these stupid fucking suicide thoughts out of your head. your fine and everything will be ok. school: fucking sick of you. I have more important things than worrying about a fucking physics test...... fuck off Dennis: I need you to hold me and tell me everything...

would it be ok to make a bracelet for my friend and I? she si's and she is beginning to recover. you think its a good idea?(i'm hoping it would be cool to support her that way, but I'm not sure. let me know if you think it is a good idea) I am very happy for you that you are helping yourself. *hugs*

Thank you: Dennis: for loving me and always be supportive. for listening, for talking, teaching and for being you. Kate: for being a great friend. for you wonderful hugs. Blaze: for always wanting to cuddle with me and being my puppy Mom: for putting up with me. for helping me hold on to what I have...

I'm back....I still hate to cry....

thanks.......... I don't understand why everyone insists on stabbing my already broken heart. I hate crying!!!! I feel so weak and vulnerable; and yet the tears keep staining my cheeks..... thanks so much....you have no idea how much this helped. *hugs* :bsad: :cry: :1cries: :bawl: :cry: : :bsad: :b...