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Right now, I am feeling:

* sleepy
* restless

I know those feelings are contradictory. But I really am feeling both. Quite frustrating.

Cat,

I really do mean it when I say that beautiful and thin are not synonyms. They are words with entirely different meanings. I know it's hard to believe a guy is saying this, but I really do mean this.

He's lucky to have you. You are beautiful in both body and spirit.

Hi Sarah, Even though I don't know that guy who played this prank and even though it wasn't directed at me, I got angry by just reading about him. It's so sickening that people can act this way. They have no reason to hate you or call you names. It's so sickening that they'd pick on you just to make...

Hi, I am feeling very tempted to hurt myself. Why? Because I am beyond angry! I have nowhere to direct my anger. I am convinced that if I told anyone why I was angry, they would say I have no reason to be! If I have nowhere to direct my anger, then what can I do but damage myself? I'm overwhelmed em...

This is a good idea. I often think of what I wish I said to others that I never really thought of what I wished they said to me. I won't give any identities of these people though. --- Hey. I'm really sorry I put you through that hell. You know, I'd love to be with you. I can trust you and I know yo...

--- How can you do this to me? You said over and over you were my friend and you cared! But where the fuck were you when I needed you the most? How come you fucking blow every plan you make with me? How come you treat me like I am weird? I'm not a fucking doormat! If you won't hold to your commitmen...

Thank you for your kind words, Kind Bean. limestone, what I mean is that I sometimes have the feeling that I did everything in my life "wrong". It's usually when I feel down. I think I only feel down because I did everything wrong and that if I did everything the way it should be, I wouldn't feel th...

Hi all, I realize that for a good part of my life, I was plagued with a feeling. I felt like I was doing everything in my life wrong. No matter what I did, I was "wrong." First, I'd be wrong for not "taking advice to help myself." Secondly, when I do finally take it, I feel wrong for "taking it all ...

You make a lot of sense. I know exactly what you mean. I always fear people are going to leave me. Then I fear that they will leave me because I have gotten clingy. So I have a tendency to just push people away that I find myself getting attached to before they can leave me.

Hi, I am just wondering if any of you here struggle with an attachment disorder. I know I definitely have a lot of symptoms of an attachment disorder, though I was never diagnosed. A lot of my loneliness and distrust for other people is what led me to SI. I just wonder if any of you struggle with at...

I think what we'd get by being in a relationship that we wouldn't get by being alone is a consistent friend--someone to consistantly talk to. I know I just long to have a close friend or girlfriend. I want someone I can discuss my thoughts and feelings with--someone who would know what I am talking ...

When we deal with something rough and feel discouraged, I think we all don't want advice. We just want to be affirmed. So..... *hugs*

I understand how you feel. I feel a lot of my mood instability is due to that I have a difficult time emotionally connecting to people because of a disorder I have. It's really frustrating. I really long for someone I can emotionally connect to and be open with that I can talk to on a stable basis. ...

I was thinking through my coping skills. I noticed something odd. It's that my attitude toward my problems affects how well I am able to deal with it. If I look at my problems as a sign of weakness and tell myself I will be no good unless I get over them, I have a hard time coping with them. I have ...

I realized something about myself... I know I am very lonely and I have a tendency to obsess over things, such as negative past events. Well, I realized that those two are deadly combinations because if a girl I like comes along, I tend to obsess over her. I realize this is a big obstacle in develop...

I have heard stories of people who go to bed feeling upset and wake up with cuts on themselves that they don't remember doing. Is it possible that people can cut in their sleep? What causes people to cut in their sleep and is there anything that can be done to prevent it? I just read stories about t...

I know that people often don't like it when others complain that they can't "get anyone" but I felt safe posting about it here. I'm not looking for someone to ask me out. I just want to vent my feelings of loneliness. I just want a place I can discuss my feelings. I deal with a lot of insecurity wit...

I know a lot of are familar with being blamed for your own SI problem. People say hurtful things and say it's your fault. They accuse you of pitying yourself and not wanting to get better. They yell at you. You might think of them as malicious. But I believe they feel inept and they refuse to admit ...