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I relate very much, I have a hard time not being close to perfect at anything, it's like "oh crap, another thing I'm sh*t at, stupid me" You are obviously not alone in feeling like this. I think once you recognise a problem, you can begin to think about the emotions behind it and work through it, so...

Ahh, how I relate to that. I've tried many different "coping skills" and while they seem to help to some degree or at least delay my actions for a while I don't seem to be able to find something that has the same effect that si-ing does.... it just doesn't hit as hard, it doesn't seem to let it ALL ...

I don't know, it sounds like it would be important to talk to SOMEONE though. If you don't have anyone else to talk to in real life, do what you need to do- call him.. it's obvious you are struggling. Just try to stay direct and concise, maybe write down what you want to say before you call...so you...

I can't deal with this. You have murmerings of "later" but all I hear is rejection"I don't want you" Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. maybe I am just too fu**ed up. why can't someone really go after me for once, or are you just trying to be considerate ? all I want to do is make some dramatic sta...

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hesitant
unsure
intimidated
a little scared
the whole "it's inevitable" thing
do I subconciously finish things up or do they finish on their own ? (due to me)
should I stop...or is it healthy self-protection
maybe it's not right ?
what is right ?
L o ve d ???

cool idea, i love to colour I find it really theraputic.
I will have to try it if I can figure out how to do it.
Thanks !

do you want me or don't you ? I feel like something is coming and I suspect it's because of my figure... no on ehas ever complained, great timing :cry: Oh well it might not be that bad... It's just you're so quiet. I want you... I really do. I don't know if that'll change down the road or not... or ...

Lost, in many senses.

Not so good

weird
achey
unable to think clearly
stupid as usual

That I don't fit in anywhere , I never will, it's a sad realisation and it hurts.

Tired and very lonely.

Thanks.
I bet you never even looked back.

maybe it's time.

throw me away.

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guess that answered my question. you gave up on me, can i give up on me too now.

I'm angry at you. sorry but I am do I get a check mark when your done. what am I twenty fith down the list now ?.

Thanks for replying to this- it brings some reassurance just to know someone's out their.I think that's why I like bus, even if we don't have the answers , people care and take the time and effort to let people know that (even when THEY are struggling).It's nice to have the support.