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I don't want to hurt my boyfriend... I have so many times in the past... and especially recently I've really seen how much he cares... I can't hurt him... he means too much to me... ... rather than si, I write, work on my portfolio... or clean my room [ :roll: yeah, that one actually works sometimes...

interesting... well... I would assume that basic food/water and shelter was "included" to a degree... ? or something like that... anycase... ~my boyfriend... same reasons as others... he's important to me... ~tablet/scketchbook and writing material(s) ~my dog Kelsey ~ computer/music [internet's a st...

... thought about how much it would hurt and disappoint my boyfriend... [again... ] and worked on some art and my memory box...

I curled up under my blanket and held a pillow tight for comfort... all the while listening to "the cure" and slowly drifted into some much needed sleep...

i talked to my boyfriend... and realized that i can't hurt him... [or myself] anymore... i've done that enough already- ... i also treated myself to some chocolate... even though i don't like too much of it...

my mom: "i had no reason or right to treat you the way i do... i have issues about things, but they are not because of you... i belive that you can succeed..." my boyfriend: "i love you... i'm sorry i got so worked up about your last si episode, i didn't mean to worry you..."... ... "i never meant t...

mom... i hate how you treat me... i'm sick of you making me feel like nothing... like i'ma failure and i'll always be nothing... i'm sick of you telling me i'm screwed up... part of why i cut is because of you... the neglect... the screaming... the physical abuse... you blame me for all of your prob...

just because i cut doesn't mean i'm messed up... you and your friends go home to big houses and happy families, rooms full of new electronic equiptment... you drive expensive cars that your parents give you... use money that you didn't earn... you don't ahve to pay for things yourself... you dont' h...

I have to go to a ball at the end of the month and I stupidly chose a sleeveless dress :roll: i chose a speghetti strap for prom last year... make up can help cover it if you play around with it and see what works... i wish i would have had a reason to stop before i ever started... add on: when i c...

the last few times i've wanted to si i didn't... the reason why is because of my boyfriend- we talked thigns over a few times and really found out how much and what we meant to each other... he wants me to stop and i promised him i wouldn't si anymore and if i felt like "exploding" [cutting] that i'...

i too have discovered that thread and went about making one a few days ago out of inspiration... i think it's wonderful that you've decided to stop as well as show what you've been through- i support your encouragement and what you are doing completely- im wear the bracelet i made constantly and you...

i like this post... it does make you smile... things tha tmake me smile... :1paw: blowing up marshmellow peeps in the microwave around easter :microwave: :1paw: rainbows :1paw: butterflies :bfly: :1paw: dr. pepper [or any generic version for that matter] :1paw: rain :1paw: fresh falling/fallen snow ...