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that is an excellant idea. thanks for sharing it!

*runs off to get index cards and markers*

i'm so frustrated that i don't even know what i'm frustrated about the most anymore...but i think that it is you

i don't know what i want to do with my life....i'm not even sure i want to keep on living any longer

*****SU, SI****** What is your secret? i'm afraid of what i could do to myself Why is it a secret? because i'm too ashamed to tell anyone What are your feelings about this secret? scared, ashamed Why are you telling this secret now? i need to get things out in the open and this is a start Is this so...

*****SA*****




Bad memory: being molested in the kitchen and then having $1.00 thrown at me because that's what I was worth


Good memory: watching my 7 year old neice play with my 1 year old neice or seeing my 1 month old nephew sleep

PM's are ok

*****SU*****


i want to die and not just the "die so that the pain goes away"-type of it, i really want to die (i have no plan to carry it out though because i'm too depressed to do so)

So, I'm on my 3rd therapist in 2 years (because the others have all decided to resign). At the end of the session Thursday, she leans in and says, "I have something to tell you and I don't know how to say it". I had strong suspicions of what was coming at that point and so I just looked at her and s...

:evil: there's a girl in my DBT group who asks every week if i'll give her a ride home. every week i tell her no, but i make up excuses instead of just telling her that i'm not a damn taxi service like i should do. i don't know if i'm more annoyed/irritated with her for asking or myself for not bein...

i'm worried that i won't be able to achieve all the goals i set for myself

i don't know how to let people take care of me

an emergency box is the same thing as a coping box from what i understand. in mine i have pictures of friends and family and happy times, paper and colored pencils and pens to write and color and draw with, lists of funny and inspiring quotes and small stories, cards from loved ones, a few prayers, ...

i hope that one day i can call myself a survivor and honestly feel that way. i hope that my mom and i will be able to have a strong relationship. i hope that my neices and nephew NEVER have to endure many of the obstacles that i've had to overcome. i hope that one day i will love myself for the wond...

i am a good listener
i have a good sense of humor
i have a great smile
little kids adore me
i respect myself

i only count in terms of weeks si-free and if i "slip" then i have to start all over again.

it motivates me to stay si free to try and beat my personal best records

my personal best is 6 months
my current si-freeness is 8 weeks

mwr

i think of reading as my main escape. you can go anywhere you want with a book. just pick the type of book that matches how you are feeling and imagine whatever the book is describing. it is great! another great escape is walking. nothing but me and the sounds and feeling of nature all around me. i ...

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i love you. i've loved you from the moment we met and it's never gone away, nor do i want it to. it's a magnificant form of torture. i know that you may never feel the same way about me, but i needed to say that little piece. i feel better now.

lonely
a little sad
lazy
somewhat depressed
in love with my roommate, again
tired

:star: Comments are fine - PM :star: SA trig i hate that i never told anyone how you used to molest me night after night until 10 years after you had left us i still feel like the abuse was my fault i should have done things differently and the abuse wouldn't have happened my younger sister told abo...

i'm done with cutting. i decided that 2 weeks ago and haven't cut since then. my action plan: i started EMDR in therapy to help with flashbacks of past abuse and other distressing thoughts that make me want to cut. It really seems to be helping, even though I've only done one session thus far. also,...