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Thanx for bein proud of me!

I also emailed my cousin Heather last night, and that really helped, too! I managed not to cut!

Ya I'm talking to my friend right now and it does seem to be helping. Even though she may not understand whats going on sometimes,but being able to get out how I'm feeling and knowing someone is on the other end to at least lissen does help!

Thanx. I emailed someone I use to know who works at a center that deals with loss and that made me feel a bit better. And one of my friends is online at this moment so it might help a bit also. I know Si is just gona make me feel further from my friend!

I watching this movie and it's like kind of stressing me out but not really. It mostly making me sad, and making me miss my friend even more! I think I was also a bit triggered before this by lissening to this song that reminded me of my friendship with my friend. The movie was talking about love, a...

OMG that was a year ago today! lmfao! Thats so funny that people read this exactly a year later!

your super!

Thanx Madcow. I'm glad I made it through that, even though it's still hard sometimes.
Thanx for reading, and being supportive of me!

I wish that when this is over and her probation officer lets us talk again, that we will still be friends, and stay friends forever and ever!! (Thats kind of two wishes, I guess.) At least thats my hope, and I hope these wish come true!! :)

I hear you hun! And I can totally relate. The last time I was two weeks si free, it started to get hard! Then I found new ways to hurt myself! STOPPING SI IS PROBABLY THE BIGGEST STRUGGLE, AND WHEN WE ARE THE WEAKEST TO GIVE INTO OTHER FORMS OF SELF-HARM!! Like I am about to go into two weeks si fre...

Thanx for the support Mallie.

Thanx for checking up on me! It went pretty well, I drew on my arms, i danced, then i went to the movies, came home and wrote and read! At least that was just like anxiety or somthin! Now I have a problem with my family today! And I know It can't be solved with cutting! Cutting won't get me any clos...

I was actually doing that! I had my head phones on, and was actin gooffy and and dancen around to music! It did help, I didn't even do it on purpose to avoid cutting, i just did it cause i was waiting for my sis to finish getting ready, and cause duh it's fun! lol

OMG I totally forgot about doin that! Darwing pretty art work on my arms, with markers of course!

If I cut I'll lose her! If I hide it from her I'll be lying! She's my best friend I've scared her way to much, with my need to self-harm! I could cope in another way but I'll still lose her! AND I CAN'T LOSE HER, SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!! I lost my one friend when she found out I was raped! I can'...

I just needa get this out, in a positive way. After it fist happend I was in shock, but could still cry a little. Than once i broke into that pain I could just cry. Now I can't realy cry, abnd just feel numb, in its place. I just wish that I coukd get this out,instead of the self-harm, or jsut the w...

LOL feels stupid for posting this now, *smilies*, oh well it was months ago. I know know things just don't apear, lol.

~Have fun dancing Spoof and Jomomma!:) ~


~Lynz

^^^ glimmer, not glimer! LOL I can't spell! ~Sory for taking up wish space, for my weirdness and mistakes!

~Lynz

~Sorry i forgot an important one from my first post,or better yet a few important ones!~ ; I wish I didn't have to fight myself for food,to let myself survive, and life! I wish I didn't live in this town, or with my mom for that matter! ~Lyndsie (LOL I figire if i sign my name at the bottom the wish...

I wish their was a wish fairy to grant us all our wishes!!!!!