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ditto, i go with a template and add stuff (well, i went the one time i've done it so far) sometimes i couldn't add anything, but if htere was location i used that, or name comments (particularly if its music related or something i can talk about), interests or website. in my template is a bit about ...

cheers

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New security means that if I am logged out I can see the main board interface, but can't actually get into any of the forums. I'm guessing that new users experience the same. Would it make sense for there to be a paragraph long intro to bus, viewable to non-members. otherwise how do they get to know...

thanks balletomane. i think your right, that SI is becoming part of my routine. Its got to the point where it feels wrong for me to have gone to bed without SIing. which is stupid, and totally against the point of the thing. i do, in a way take care of myself. i'm a big bubble bath fan, i try to exe...

hi, not sure if i should really post here anymore, was given access back in the days when i was committed to stopping... this is an after post, but not after a slip. to call what i did a slip is to dignify it, make it sound like a struggle. i si regularly now, back in the old bad place, only this ti...

- texts and getting post
- unexpected hugs
- clean sheets and pyjamas
- someone cooking for me
- warm mornings

hi, sorry to post here again, i haven't been good about replying to other's posts in this forum, but i'm going to post again, mainly because i found it so helpful last time. sorry, so sorry. Kharre's questions: Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i feel i need to ...

i need this. starting uni very soon and am already having to gear myself for the inevitable si fight when i get there. i find that planning as such doesn't really help, but having a pattern of behaviour really does. doing one routine (e.g. hiding in room and listening to music) rather than the other...

i really like this thread. i think i'm better at interior design than feelings.... anyway right now it would be one of those rooms you see in the ikea catalogue, all pale colours and neutral and beautiful, but somehwo not home. if i could change it, it would be just as calm and tidy but with my stuf...

They give you the words, so its not really like writing poetry its like a word game, but you can make sentences and poems that mean something to you too. I highly reccomend it. It distracted me for ages and i felt better afterwards. i did that a few times. somehow working out feelings with fridge p...

to me, coping means being able to encounter things and not let them becoming overwhelming, or if they do overwhelm for a while being able to push off and then get on with relative contentment. though my definition of coping differs with whatever i'm having problems doing at the mmoent. a few months ...

those black and white lines that you can't focus on and seem to move. all around. no perspective,no up no down, just the lines.

this is for coping with emotions? if so i'm leaving out the usual survival stuff. - knowledge of when i would leave the island - i would find it easier to cope if there wasn't uncertainty - rocky, my teddy. - my cd collection - O. if i'm allowed to take people, a copy of keats' poems if i'm not - a ...

do you deserve friends? if not, why not?

why do you think they are only nice because they have to be?

i'm actually doing quite well at the moment, my mood seemed to lift after i wrote the last set out. i'll answer the questions though, because this has been interesting and helpful. limestone: i'm not sure what i want someone who could help me to do. i was thinking about this last night - partly its ...

Anyway, tenar, I know I shouldn't carry them with me- but when I'm without them I feel so totally helpless. I think I'm more likely to resort to SI because the first thing I think becomes "what else can I use to hurt myself with?" and I don't think about the feelings at all. I've become dangerously...

this is going to sound a bit harsh, but: if these people upset you so much then is it worth reconsidering you're relationship. it sounds to me that they are being friendly to you, but do you want to be friends with them, or do you just feel guilty for not returning their friendship?

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sorry, but i'm not entirely sure what the situation is. could you explain more fully (or link to another thread) what it is with these people that upsets you, how it makes you feel etc. thanks also, is it necessary to fit in everywhere? will there be some people you can never fit in with howevr much...

btw, while i am desperate not to want help it is a conflicting thing - half of me is begging for it (the half posting here) and half of me is hating the other half for asking - and as each side gets worse the other responds in a lovely vicious cycle way. also, i'm currently doing the bad thing of ru...

I'm just so worried all of my work will go to pot when I have to face tests (failure), workload (being overwhelmed), extracurriculars (social anxiety), college apps (rejection)...etc. ok, this may sound mad and not really help with the being overwhelmed thingy but the way i survived year 13 (the ye...