bus

my cat obsessively licks all the fur off of her stomach and back legs.

you're right ... something about taking care of an animal you can relate to is tremendously soothing.

that is the cutest thing ever in the whole world.

(oh, i want a new kitten now!!)

lucky_lenny, that larkin keeps me company in certain moods ... but this one's my favorite of his ... because of the last stanza. this one has some redemption. High Windows When I see a couple of kids And guess he's fucking her and she's Taking pills or wearing a diaphragm, I know this is paradise Ev...

WOOHOO!!!




that's fanstastic!!!

methinks you should go do something really nice for yrself, to celebrate.


~b

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way ...


love that song.

roxi,

loved loved loved it. the stars flash signals, each of them dreadful ...

lucky_lenny ... that just made me cry. (no worries. the good kind.)

To sing is either praise
or defiance. Praise is defiance.

damn straight.


~b

electric prophet, i've been kind of following your CISCO worries over the past several days, because i'm in the middle of some pretty intense exams, myself ... not THE big exam of everything, but one "this will determine the course of your graduate education" one, definitely. and this really struck ...

because i made myself wait ten minutes. just ten. and sure enough, in ten minutes, i didn't want to anymore. not nearly as badly, anyway.

hah! thanks. going out to buy his v. of 'Sonnets to Orpheus' now. that was freakin' amazing.

roxi, i'd never read "Under the Oak" ... thank you. careful w/ "The Second Coming" ... it's ...When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert, A shape with lion body and the head of a man, A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun, Is moving its slow thighs, w...

i'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time right now, NobodyToYou, but i'm glad to see that you posted, after having read a part in one of your "before" posts about maybe not wanting to come on BUS after. So I need to look for other ways to actually deal with the emotions, rather than just distract...

hey, treesleeper, i just wanted to let you know that i read. more later, but quickly for now (i'm at work): I'm a little afraid that cutting will be like allowing him to control me, does that make sense? I would like to be able to get past him without resorting to cutting. it does make sense ... in ...

NobodyToYou: i just replied to your last post, and it's all pretty much exactly what i would say to this one. the only other thing i would say is this: I would probably feel that I needed to hide from BUS and the people who have tried to help me. honey, remember something: nobody here is going to be...

Ok...not sure what else to say or how to say it...so I will stop. you don't have to stop. i hear you. :) i've said it already, but your post reminds me very, very much of me when i was in school. especially this part: I am kinda feelng trapped in a lot of ways. I REALLY need to stop SI and get past...

NobodyToYou: this jumped out at me, reading your post: I want to be calm, able to focus, productive. that really strikes a chord with me. SI produces the same effect in me, and i used to feel i had no choice but to SI when i had work to get done and just couldn't seem to focus any other way (mostly ...

How do I feel right now? Completly helpless. I feel like I have no control over what I think. I don't have any. Images of cuts and feelings of pain keep going through my brain at a 100 miles an hour. All of these memories about Chris last year; good times, bad times, his cuts, him losing weight, hi...

i am not ok. i do not know what is wrong with me. and i'm tired of pretending i'm ok. i'm tired of trying to muddle through. i want this fixed. i want to be happy, functional, normal. i want to not feel like the world is going to crash down around my head if i check my mail or check my cell phone m...

I'm way overanalyzing this, and I don't know what to do. what do you want to do? ignoring his feelings for the moment, or how you think he might feel, or how you'll feel if he feels a certain way, or or or... etc... what do you want to do, right this minute? i overanalyze, too. way overanalyze. and...