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hey C. thanks for doing that. you saved my arse today. i tried really hard to get things sorted, but i usually fuck them up, i wish i could explain to you why, about being depressed, about self harming, so that you wouldn't just think that i'm lazy or rude or a procrastinator. but even though you do...

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i am your tourniquet.
(but this time when you say it, i want you to know me and know what the above actually means. and i want you to want me)

well that was selfish of you wasn't it. i wouldn't mind so much, but you think you're such a giving, caring person. i spend half my time shouting myself down for being selfish. why should i have to do that, when it's you, you you?! i care about people, no matter what. whereas you don't care about ra...

*SI* in response to this conversation amongst numerous others: "what did you do, go up to him and say "do you remember me""? "no, actually he came up to me" "oh, he came up to you!" YOU are an emotional fuckwit. not me. you. arghhhhhhh. blabbing on about how you're a "healer", you're totally insensi...

i did send that message.
you're not my tourniquet. you're quite the opposite.
i wish you were though, i really do.
oh and your eyes are beautiful.

R - before i wrote an angry entry to you on this thread. i deleted it because some of it really wasn't true of you and most of it was based on irrational anger. However i have since realised that some of it was true so i'm going to try expressing myself in a more sensitive way. you think you are emp...

p or maybe c - I want to cut. Can you keep me safe tonight, please?

deleted. as was spur of the moment. irrational. that's not what i think about one of my best friends, i was just taking it out on her, i realise that now. so instead: r - I am sorry for even thinking about saying that to you. you have been such a good friend to me, listened to me, been there for me,...

M- can i be your honorary big brother again? you are the most adorable, loveable little sis, i just want to give you the biggest hug. P- i'm such a major league retard, why did it take me so long to realise how perfect you are. i really, really like you. just as you are. i'll understand. you don't n...

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