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I love you. I do. I know that that can't be right after jsut one evening but I know how I feel., I think about you day and night and it is tearing me up insuide. Part of me wants to keep contact, part of me doesn't and I don't know what to do. I dont' want to hurt you by saying "no" but I don't want...

Hello I can't log on from public access computers, specifically the ones at schoo. It's not a problem (I'm not asking for a fix, it's fine jsut to log on at home) but you might find that if you are using computers whcih are in the education system they may have a firewall to stop you using the site....

Hello

It's brilliant! Stellaria PM-d me and I knew who it was from!!

Ah well, little things for little minds!


Thanks Deb

Jane

Hello

That's cool!

I just need someone to send me a pm now to test it!!

Jane

Hello

Has anyone found one for OPERA yet? My typing is appalling and I would be here forever if I corrected everything manually (that's why I don't!)

Thanks

Jane

Hello Thank you for the reply. I've not made it through an urge before so this would be a first. I have talked to my pdoc a bit and he ussually suggests increasing the meds (which I have done suvccessfully but I don't want to do again if I can help it) and CBT techniques which I need to dig out. It'...

Hello Feelign urgy again. I've been feelign good for a while now (the last drugs increase at Christmas has helped a lot) but it's been creeping up at me again. I've been holding out and not doing anything but it's still there. How will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'm not sure ...

Hiya

Thanks for sorting it out. it's really weird!


Do we need to reselect our avatars in the Profile section or will they magically reappear?

Jane

1) My teddy, Toffee
2) My violion and sheet music
3) My computer and the internet
4) Lots and lots of good books
5) cheese and biscuits

Jane

Comments ok - PM

* I hate myself. Completely.
*I suspect I may be a lesbian but I dont' want to be and I dont' want to know
*I want to harm the girl who has my job - I'm really jealous of her
*I'm scared
*I wish I had killed myself

Hello am still feelign really urgy. am tryign distractions in spades but the thoughts are permanently back in my head nad my arm is "buzzing" where it wants to be cut. the only way I know out of this situation - intrusive thoughts, etc - is to cut and get it over with. Then I know I will get some pe...

Painful.

I made a mistake today. i want to cut myself to punish myself for it.



Jane

Hello

felt quite urgy today but have resisted so far.

Have been to an osteopath for my neck - fun!??

Jane

Hello

thanks for the reply. I've not si-dtpday which is another victory. I've been really busy. anyhow, if I want pain all I have to do is trun my head at the moment and...ouch!

Will try to be good to myslef. tomorrow night is a night off. Early night and my favouirte programe

Jane

Hello I've been in this position before. The urge to si, for no particular reason that I can see, is creeping up on me again. It starts with just thoughts, then the feeligns come back, the feligns on my skin, then I start seeing the results in my had, then I start thinking about it all the time - ev...

Hello

I have a lot of posts marked for notification when replies are made but I am getting no notifications at all and haven't for the last week or so. I am getting some PM notifications but not all. Is there something in my setting which is wrong? I can't spot it. Any ideas?

Thanks

Jane

Hello What's a pinata? I like the idea of covering yourself in paper mache. I've also thought about a temporary tattoo on the place you want to si. some sort of acknowledgement. I understand how you feel (or don't feel) about having no feelings, being numb. It's really hard. Could you stick a plaste...

Thanks for the replies. I appreciate them. I'm not sure that I want to go back to see my Therapist. She tends not to let me go jsut for one or two sessions but makes me go for longer nad I can't afford it (I have to pay) and I don't want to get into the long term saga again. I don't know if there is...

have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes but still bleeding. what had happened just before? Been building up all day with a huge sense of inevitability about it. Just got ready to go to bed then foudn I coudln't walk through the door. So stood with my head...

Hello Mum and dad used to tell me - sometimes still do - that I jsut talk for the sake fo it so it's safer not to talk to anyone. I feel like I ma wanting attention, craving attention and being a nuisance. i'm not sure why but I often feel like that. I see the worst in my pupils and their most annoy...