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a new one - ontorruf

zombiepeople: well done!

I have finally sent that email (I should have sent it a week ago). anyway, I sent it now.

i am... :lgrnstar: tired. very very tired. :lgrnstar: annoyed by myself. :lgrnstar: worn out. i am not... :lgrnstar: hurting myself :lgrnstar: totally shattered i feel... :lgrnstar: lost :lgrnstar: stupid. somehow i want... :lgrnstar: to be loved. :lgrnstar: to be fully awake. :lgrnstar: school issu...

I wish I was whole, normal
I wish I wasn't so exhausted all the time

Have I ever mentioned that I don't like you? I don't think so. you are just one stupid retard. you are ridiculous. you may have had your problems, I don't know - but you have never been near where I am. so stop telling me what's best for me. I think I know that far better than you do. honestly, man,...

why do you keep doing that do me? how come you always tell me you're not interested? why do you not care? I have hurt myself and I have beaten myself up for you and you didn't even realised. I have cried and was lonely and depressiv and you just didn't see it. Am I nothing to you? that can't be it! ...

I was really good at my driving lesson.

I did all the household work that had been set up for me.

well done
for that you can really be proud

i am... :blkstar: so scared :blkstar: broken i am not... :blkstar: alone i feel... :blkstar: empty i want... :blkstar: to be whole again i need... :blkstar: to know how I can be helped i have... :blkstar: had a horrible day :blkstar: not slipped today of which I can be proud i love... :blkstar: the ...

supporting friends
the night's warm enough to be outside
my recovering places

I finally cooked something that was eatable.

the sun and the nature in spring
books
sports
my dog

i am ... awake. ... hopefully. mostly ... improving. ... scared. ... angry. i am not ... happy. ... convinced of myself. ... urging to cut myself. at the mom. ... free. i feel... ... so angry. ... annoyed by myself. i want... ... to be able to take life easy again. ... to not have to worry about ev...

just some snippets "strong enough" - matthew west I know I'm not strong enough to do everything that I'm supposed to do I give up... I'm not strong enough And I'm broken down to nothing but I'm still holding on to the one thing "story of your life" - matthew west this is the story of your life you d...

I hope I will soon be strong enough to tell my story and that the person of my confidence will react in a somehow appropriate way.

I hope that I sometimes be happy like I've always dreamed to be.