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I wish that i no longer have to wear a mask.
I wish that i dont have to pretend anymore
I wish that even just for once that i could say how i felt to someone irl.
I wish it got better

Yes, i used to do volunteer work quite often. I volunteered at a kids camp, and at another i taught younger kids how to play softball(something i've been playing..well played since i was a tiny tot) I've answered phones for a charity line, cleaned streets. I also turned this really crappy lot into a...

N--Why do you always have to blame it on me. I'll ask when i feel ready to. STOP FUCKING PRESSURING ME!! I hate when you tell me things i dont need to know, you make me feel uncomfortable, it makes me cringe in my seat. You dont always have to hurt me you know. im not some bag you can yell at and wo...

Stop telling me to get a fucking guy, you have no idea about my past. You have no idea how much they hurt me, you have no idea about the feelings and emotions and pain i have towards having a boyfriend. You have no fucking idea. I guess thats my fault. I just wish you'd stop pressing me to tell you ...

M-im sorry, i lied to you, im sorry. I couldnt tell you why that scar was there. im sorry. Maybe in the future. I dont deserve you, you say i do but i dont. Im not good enough. You deserve better. Thank you for being wonderful.

I wish for once, just once that i could tell you how i truely felt.

Everyone irl except a few---I fucking hate that you dont believe me!!!! Im not anything you heard...i didnt say that shit and it makes me soooo unbelievably hurt that you would even begin to think that those rumours could even be remotly true!! I guess i dont know any of you like i hoped i did. I do...

Ben-I'm sorry i lied to you already, but im afraid that if you found out everything about me youd be wierd. But things are already wierd. Maybe i made a mistake. Im sorry i dragged you into this. I cant trust you. Yes i am/was *su* yes those 'cuts' were intentional. I wish i had the strength to tell...

*agrees pope has given lots of blood lately*

I didnt because i know if I started i wouldnt stop. I couldn't deal with it atm.

Everyone who has supported me
my friends
bus
my best friend
text messaging..I'd be lost without it
music
the sun shinning bright because its a new day.

Love, Shaye

I wish J would think of others before doing something
I wish i could realize that i am loved and feel it.
I wish for nothing more right now then to have someone rescue me from me.
I wish to be saved.

Mom and dad-I'm proud of you. T-Sorry I've been such a dick. J-I'm sorry i lied to you, sorry i told you your feelings ment the most when at that point they didnt. I know i wont have your trust again like i did but i want you to know that i wont stop trying to regain it. B-im here for you, through e...

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false hope. you led me on and crushed me under your foot. I want to cut tonight, where are you? Take me in your arms i need to hear you say that you'll always be there. No matter what i do. Look at me! Cant you freaking see the hurt in my eyes. Dont turn me away again. I wish you'd stop shutting me ...

You hurt me so bad. So bad. Everytime i close my eyes its you i see. I cant be alone with guys anymore....did you know that??huh Z did you?!! You did that to me. You made me scared. You made me dirty. I hate you so much for that. So so so much. I will never be the same. fuck Z why did you have to do...

I didnt because i came on here and poked ducky and then she tickled me and i wet my pants :oops: (dont worry pope8586 gave me new ones :wink: ) now im all about the beaver poop. I didnt because i drank alot or caffiene 'cause :morning: Lastly, I couldnt find my blade...I guess thats the main reason....

Dr.Peach-Why cant you figure out whats wrong with me? Your a doctor...your suppsoed to be smart!!!I hate how you asked me about my si today. Thats all you were worried about for the first half hour. I wasnt there for you to check up on my si. Ugh you made me soo freaking mad. Figure out whats wrong ...

The last time i wanted to si i didnt because it was dark so i ran to the field while it was thundering and i screamed, and then looked up at the sky for awhile.

T-I hate that you make me feel so fucking stupid. Let me do things for me for once. let me learn. let me be free. I DONT CARE if your resume is better than mine....but who got a job first???What me? yeah fuck you i know i got the job so obviously my resume isnt as bad as you believe. I hate that you...

:redstar: I wish i could help everyone who is hurting :redstar: I wish that I could make people smile even if i cant myself :redstar: I wish i was skinny again :redstar: I wish i got high 90's in school again so they will be proud :redstar: I wish the past never happened, but in turn its what made m...