bus

you hurt me so much you scarred me worse than i can ever do to myself. your with me everywhere i go reminding me i'm just that stupid girl trying too hard. i dont try anymore you know. i gave up. you called me names whispered behind my back and pretended to love me. i knew you were lying but i didnt...

i'm crying on the inside

i wish i felt 'normal'
i wish i couldn't hear the trains
i wish i wasn't feeling so SU
i wish my finger didn't hurt
i wish i had a tuna sandwich
i wish i didnt need to wish

ok so i fucked up could you please let it lie? you've done it too. You've messed everything up lying and exaggerating. What i mean to say is you messed everything up more. I can't cope with this right now. Get over it! get over me just forget you ever knew me and forget i screwed up. I'm not part of...

i forgot it all and i only forgot for a while but now i remember and it hurts twice as much
i messed up so bad. i dont deserve to cry crying makes me feel better. but i really need to.

i've gotten so used to feeling bad crying has no meaning anymore but i cant stop

why am i letting people do this to me? why am i doing it to myself? i don't wanna do this anymore its too hard

- because i dont wanna be dependant - because i'm hurting the people who love me - because i'm not being honest - because it's taking over my life - because i want to like myself again (altho my si is only a product of why i dont like myself i thought id throw it in there) - because i dont wanna be ...