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the last time i wanted to SI, i didn't because i don't want to move backwards in my life

thank you. it's nice to know i'm not alone.

i've gotten very good at not SIing when i'm sad (it's been years at this point). i have a bigger problem right now. i'm bipolar, and when i'm hypomanic or manic, i get these incredible urges to do something impulsive. but shopping sprees don't help me- it has to be something impulsive and destructiv...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It won't really change, I will just have a quick fix to the immediacy of my impulsiveness and depression. I will have a momentary di...

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I may feel less depressed. Less spiraling down a black hole. I may feel like I've invalidated the sadness I'm feeling. I may not. * what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I feel it will...

Questions to Answer After A Slip have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yeah. i mean i'll deal with the scars and the questions with lack of stitches, but i'm used to that unfortunately. what had happened just before? i was trying to study for chemistry and...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I might feel a little more satisfied with this moment, like i did something to ameleorate it somehow, even if i fail what will hurti...

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? maybe i'll be less angry. maybe i can bear the moments going by, or my life the way it is, or the helplessness that i have in the face of c...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I think I would feel better in the short term, just with that release it gives you. In the longterm I guess I know that it will make things worse. And it won't really help the actual situation at all. what will hurting myself bring to the ...

After last night Questions to Answer After A Slip have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Mostly. I'm not sure what else to do with it. Stitches have always been out of the question. what had happened just before? I was talking to my friend Deepali and then I...

* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i might stop feeling so miserable, so empty, so confused, so lost, so pathetic, so worthless * what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it might keep me from killing myself. but it will t...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. it needs stitches but it will survive. i took care of it. what had happened just before? my x-boyfriend told me he wanted me back but only if i'd have sex with him, and i loved him but i was mad at him, and my former be...

where do people who don't SI or have an ED or something learn to cope??? where, when, why, how, from whom???

BECAUSE I THINK I WAS ABSENT THAT WEEK IN SUNDAY SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!

i think that for me it's always the little things that make me SI. sometimes, when something huge and really stressful happens, (although i usually do SI), sometimes i don't. i don't need to. but when i least expect it, when i think i'm fine and dandy, it's then the urges are the worst. hm... that's...

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i think that i've realized i feel so numb and so dead, except when i'm SI-ing. also, my ED's getting worse and i don't know how to deal with that... so my SI is feeding off my ED and my ED's feeding off my SI. Have I been here b...

1) my violin because music always calms me down, especially when i'm playing it 2) my mother's laptop because it has internet so i could go on BUS because i can't talk to anyone but you guys 3) this little box of things that is full of all the special things in my life... both good and bad that alwa...

SIOBHAN: screw you. i'm not okay i never was. yet you all ignored me and went running to joanna. and i sat there as my usual wallflower self... KRISTIN: you hurt me, okay? DO YOU EVEN CARE??? do you ever sit there at night and wonder, what happened to her? well my ED didn't go away, and you could ha...

i run and i go up in the forest and smash bottles. (of course then i have to pick up all the glass because i don't want to hurt any deer... if you have an empty room or something that might be better). then again i'm not very good at this either. i'm angry all the time, and about 99% of my anger is ...

running

want to cry in real life about my ED, but since i can't cry these are all my tears: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: