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Its great that you want to recover. Its great that you want to change. Wish I was there. A little tiny part of me is but the ed voice is so loud it just drowns all that out. Its great that you are seeking help for it. You deserve it. Just don't give up like I did.
-Badgirl22

I am here if you want to talk.
-Badgirl22

I think I need to cry. Problem is I can't. I tryed at the therapist office but couldn't do it. I suck. I keep thinking I want to die. I keep having death thoughts. I keep feeling sucky. the therapist thinks I am depressed. I don't think I am. Maybe I am just kidding myself. crying never got me feeli...

***ED** what is my secret? I want to kill my body Why is it a secret?because I can't tell anyone this What are your feelings about this secret?I feel guilty, angry, and frustrated Why are you telling this secret now?Because it has been in me for a long time Is this something you could change/ do dif...

what are my real feelings? I feel sad and frustrated. I don't like myself and all I want to do is excercise cause that is the only place I feel like something will change. I do feel fat but today I just want to get outside of my body. I know people who are overweight and they arn't happy because of ...

my negitive feelings would improve if I lost weight and I saw changes in my body.
-Badgirl22

I logically know fat is not a feeling but today that is what I feel. Fat. Ugly. I know I am fat, I am obese and I want to loose weight fast. I am ingaging in my ed and trying to be "thin" Fat people don't get happy. They don't get good jobs. THey don't get the attention they deserve. Fat is what I a...

wow that sounds hard. I am sort of in the same place. Really wanting not to do the right thing and just give in to urges. I dono what to say except don't give up on therapy. It might help you.
-Badgirl22

I am sad, depressed, lonely, board, and did I mention sad? I am such a bad person. I am bad and fat and unlovable. I can't do anything right. I don't have a life.
-badgirl22

wow that sounds hard. I dono what to say except I am listening and I am here if u want to vent or talk or anything. I dono what I would do in your situation..can u try to stop cutting to show that you are atleast trying so that you can keep your child? That must be hard. Hugs for you if u want them....

what skills are they teaching you? DBT?CBT? What? Just curious
-Badgirl22

wow you are already on the right path if you can see and understand these things. I believe that everyone can understand and learn from themselves and that no one can forget how to see themselves when they are sad. I dono if I am making any sense but I just want you to know that things will be ok. I...

because I didn't give in to si thoughts. I walked around the block and I taught a lesson.
-Badgirl22

I feel sad still but had a better day then yesterday. Walked around the block which is good for me and spent time teaching today.
-Badgirl22

I feel sad/frustrated/depressed/angry. Mostly sad though. I just wish that these feelings would go away. Is that wrong?
-Badgirl22

I am feeling fat today. I don't want to eat but I know deep down that that is not the answer. I just wish I could loose weight. I know I am ugly and not worthy of being loved, I just want to get out of my body. I want to si just to show me that I am as ugly as I feel. Help!
-Badgirl22

What Amyfairy said. I like her suggestions. THat must have been hard for you. Let yourself feel whatever you feel about it. DOn't hold it in or take it out on yourself. Here if you want to rant or pm me or anything. That must have been very hard for you.
Here if u want.
-Badgirl22

My sad/anxious/frustrated/anger but mostly sadness and depression would improve if I do something productive today but I just don't want to do anything...how to get myself to do something today?
-Badgirl22

I understand how you feel. SOmetimes I feel that way too. Like SI is the friend that is always there no matter what happens. Coping with something else is hard for me. Its like it takes so much more to resist siing then it does to just give in. I understand. But what would happen if you waited a lit...

really good idea. I really like it. Thanks.
-Badgirl22